Reaching for the stars and falling flat on ur face
So much has occurred in the past few weeks. Where does one start. First, my lovely mother- the one that actually gave birth to me finally left her loser husband (who’s now in jail) and decided to move back to Boston from Texas. Wicked Awesome! I have no desire to see her ever again. She’s been out of my life since I was eight, and now my grandparents are hoping that everything will be fixed… are you for real. Location doesn’t fix all our problems nor does it make a family.
My dad had this little cancer scar. The doctors weren’t sure what it was, and cancer was a possibility, but thankfully it wasn’t. He’s my whole world, and if I ever lost him, well I’d be useless to anyone.
I met this girl. She’s amazing. She’s beautiful, and funny and nice and sweet. Everything I could ask for in someone to date- and she has so many strings. I guess she still in this relationship with her ex girlfriend. Which is ummm so much fun for me. My plan, to walk away before I actually start liking her. My problem, I’ve already past that point. I mean she makes an amazing friend. I really don’t need to have a relationship with her- except when she kissed me- I got butterflies. Oh yeah and I’m always thinking about her. Sure no problem at all. I’m fucked- omg am I fucked. Girls like that usually have amazing girlfriends that are beautiful and sexy. I just don’t know where I’d fit in… except this girl, thinks I’m one of those girls. I know your sitting there “awing” but really it’s a mess. I like someone I can’t have…. The only positive of this who thing… I finally let her (my ex) go… that’s right- like completely. I don’t have a desire to be friends with her or anything. I’m ok without her.
So that’s the brief run down…
I’m still looking for a job for the fall. I’m hoping that I get the teaching job in Boston.
Oh yeah, and this girl… she inspired me to start drawing again… yup she’s no good for me. Must go the other direction. I’m already forgetting her…
My dad had this little cancer scar. The doctors weren’t sure what it was, and cancer was a possibility, but thankfully it wasn’t. He’s my whole world, and if I ever lost him, well I’d be useless to anyone.
I met this girl. She’s amazing. She’s beautiful, and funny and nice and sweet. Everything I could ask for in someone to date- and she has so many strings. I guess she still in this relationship with her ex girlfriend. Which is ummm so much fun for me. My plan, to walk away before I actually start liking her. My problem, I’ve already past that point. I mean she makes an amazing friend. I really don’t need to have a relationship with her- except when she kissed me- I got butterflies. Oh yeah and I’m always thinking about her. Sure no problem at all. I’m fucked- omg am I fucked. Girls like that usually have amazing girlfriends that are beautiful and sexy. I just don’t know where I’d fit in… except this girl, thinks I’m one of those girls. I know your sitting there “awing” but really it’s a mess. I like someone I can’t have…. The only positive of this who thing… I finally let her (my ex) go… that’s right- like completely. I don’t have a desire to be friends with her or anything. I’m ok without her.
So that’s the brief run down…
I’m still looking for a job for the fall. I’m hoping that I get the teaching job in Boston.
Oh yeah, and this girl… she inspired me to start drawing again… yup she’s no good for me. Must go the other direction. I’m already forgetting her…