I should really come with a warning label... I wonder what it should read though...
If anyone has any ideas I'm glad to hear it. Mostly I'm tired of people reciting rhetoric they don't understand at me and I'm beyond the point of caring if I've offended people about whether or not I used the correct words to give form to my thoughts and opinions. Guess what, this is my blog, my site you're reading. If you cannot embrace the entire me as a friend then I don't need a friend who only wants to be around me part of the time.
So Warning: I'm in an irritable manic mood and don't give a fuck if I offend you. Please do not read further if you do not have a tough skin.
I'm getting so tired of all the bullshit going on in my family. Part of me wants to use a 10 foot pole to communicate and part of me wants to scream so loud that in hopes they'll hear me. But they won't, so I'm just going to do what I always do, and let them work through their own stuff and come back with a bottle of lysol air freshner to help out another day.
Two facing fucking friends bother me too, and just because I havn't confronted you doesn't mean I have no clue the shit you talk behind my back, but you only talk it behind my back because you're terrified to say it to my face and lose a friendship, cause really you don't have many.
I'm also tired of inappropriate comments being made to my fiance', and believe me when I say this I am not worried in the least that he's going anywhere, I just don't want skanks getting too close because they have a smell attached to them simular to cigarette smokers, always smelling like cigarettes no matter how long ago they smoked, except a skank's smells like old fish and moldy sperm. And really no one likes it, it's why he's not with a skank in the first place...
I'm also tired of the bullshit that everyone thinks they're an expert in every field. Yes this is the age of information but that doesn't mean in any respect that the information you find on wikipedia is correct! Chances are if Glenn Beck or the onion posted it, it's probably bull shit. Another thing, People have a right to whatever they want to say, it's a wonderful thing. Just because you say it though doesn't people that people care or that it's right. People are entitled to express themselves to the point where it doesn't cause emotional and/or physical damage to others, doesn't mean you get to wear a KKK outfit and picket a black mans funeral.
There is so much backward thinking I'm faced with not only online (cause honestly that doesn't faze me) but at school day to day! "Obama is like Osama! He must be muslim!" No you retard, he might possibly be muslim but his name doesn't have an inkling to do with that or not! XD "We're going to be socialists like North Korea" last I checked North Korea is a dictatorship.... "School obviously is a waste of time because I can survive without it just fine" Too bad there is no retirement plan with that Mcdonalds management position.... but good luck with that. Oh! My favorite is "the professor hates blacks because he makes us read books with the N*word in it" I'm not even going to grant that one a reply...
Maybe I just have a short patience for ignorance. It's not someone's fault that they're without access to education, but when you are given the choice to pursue education (school or not) and you decline it to stay with your head in the sand to protect what you've been led to believe it saddens me greatly. So much rhetoric now on the news streams and in arguments that I can scarcely say I've heard a debate lately (that wasn't the very well put together hitchens vs blair on religion is good) made any good arguments at all, good as in no logical fallacies.
Anyways That's a lot of anger to shift through, thank you for reading the rant....if you stayed around to read it all I love you as you're a true friend.
I'm not always a happy smiley person. I learned after highschool that it does not benefit myself or others to keep a painted smile on my features for the sake of not making them uncomfortable. I get mad, I get sad, I over react, I cry, I scream, I'm human.... (with a bit of bipolar flavoring, so I guess that makes me a much more intense flavor).
My point of writing this is I'm a whole person, and I have many areas I have been taught to be ashamed to show for a really long time. But I'm proud of who I am now. I've gone a long ways to get here even, and I'm working my ass off to keep going. I am very much not sorry for being myself at any point. I have mood swings, which usually come back and kick me in the ass when i come around later, but I accept that as part of me, and I am working to right it. I'm not complaining about where I am and doing nothing about it, and even though I am still coming to terms with the thought of being a 'disabled' college student I am very much glad I have had the trails and tribulations I had in my life. Without them I wouldn't be as strong a person as I am now. Without every bad friendship or mistake as well.
I want to continue living a life with no regrets, So I'm working to do so.
I'm getting anxious about next week though. I will be starting medication soon... Though we might postpone it slightly so I can get through finals week without side effects of new medication. The person that will be working through new meds is me too people, and I am anticipating she may not be someone everyone is comfortable with.
But she is me nonetheless and I will never apologize for being myself.
Anyways that's enough of a rant tonight ^_^ I'll post again later...
So Warning: I'm in an irritable manic mood and don't give a fuck if I offend you. Please do not read further if you do not have a tough skin.
I'm getting so tired of all the bullshit going on in my family. Part of me wants to use a 10 foot pole to communicate and part of me wants to scream so loud that in hopes they'll hear me. But they won't, so I'm just going to do what I always do, and let them work through their own stuff and come back with a bottle of lysol air freshner to help out another day.
Two facing fucking friends bother me too, and just because I havn't confronted you doesn't mean I have no clue the shit you talk behind my back, but you only talk it behind my back because you're terrified to say it to my face and lose a friendship, cause really you don't have many.
I'm also tired of inappropriate comments being made to my fiance', and believe me when I say this I am not worried in the least that he's going anywhere, I just don't want skanks getting too close because they have a smell attached to them simular to cigarette smokers, always smelling like cigarettes no matter how long ago they smoked, except a skank's smells like old fish and moldy sperm. And really no one likes it, it's why he's not with a skank in the first place...
I'm also tired of the bullshit that everyone thinks they're an expert in every field. Yes this is the age of information but that doesn't mean in any respect that the information you find on wikipedia is correct! Chances are if Glenn Beck or the onion posted it, it's probably bull shit. Another thing, People have a right to whatever they want to say, it's a wonderful thing. Just because you say it though doesn't people that people care or that it's right. People are entitled to express themselves to the point where it doesn't cause emotional and/or physical damage to others, doesn't mean you get to wear a KKK outfit and picket a black mans funeral.
There is so much backward thinking I'm faced with not only online (cause honestly that doesn't faze me) but at school day to day! "Obama is like Osama! He must be muslim!" No you retard, he might possibly be muslim but his name doesn't have an inkling to do with that or not! XD "We're going to be socialists like North Korea" last I checked North Korea is a dictatorship.... "School obviously is a waste of time because I can survive without it just fine" Too bad there is no retirement plan with that Mcdonalds management position.... but good luck with that. Oh! My favorite is "the professor hates blacks because he makes us read books with the N*word in it" I'm not even going to grant that one a reply...
Maybe I just have a short patience for ignorance. It's not someone's fault that they're without access to education, but when you are given the choice to pursue education (school or not) and you decline it to stay with your head in the sand to protect what you've been led to believe it saddens me greatly. So much rhetoric now on the news streams and in arguments that I can scarcely say I've heard a debate lately (that wasn't the very well put together hitchens vs blair on religion is good) made any good arguments at all, good as in no logical fallacies.
Anyways That's a lot of anger to shift through, thank you for reading the rant....if you stayed around to read it all I love you as you're a true friend.
I'm not always a happy smiley person. I learned after highschool that it does not benefit myself or others to keep a painted smile on my features for the sake of not making them uncomfortable. I get mad, I get sad, I over react, I cry, I scream, I'm human.... (with a bit of bipolar flavoring, so I guess that makes me a much more intense flavor).
My point of writing this is I'm a whole person, and I have many areas I have been taught to be ashamed to show for a really long time. But I'm proud of who I am now. I've gone a long ways to get here even, and I'm working my ass off to keep going. I am very much not sorry for being myself at any point. I have mood swings, which usually come back and kick me in the ass when i come around later, but I accept that as part of me, and I am working to right it. I'm not complaining about where I am and doing nothing about it, and even though I am still coming to terms with the thought of being a 'disabled' college student I am very much glad I have had the trails and tribulations I had in my life. Without them I wouldn't be as strong a person as I am now. Without every bad friendship or mistake as well.
I want to continue living a life with no regrets, So I'm working to do so.
I'm getting anxious about next week though. I will be starting medication soon... Though we might postpone it slightly so I can get through finals week without side effects of new medication. The person that will be working through new meds is me too people, and I am anticipating she may not be someone everyone is comfortable with.
But she is me nonetheless and I will never apologize for being myself.
Anyways that's enough of a rant tonight ^_^ I'll post again later...