Heart Broken & seen it coming :(
Well my fling did not last as long as i wished it would have, well i mean it lasted on and off for a couple years but now it's over. Unfortinitley i ruined it with that special someone. I finally got him into me once again, and then being the fool i am when im drunk, ruined it all. i was so close to being happy but i will live. Once again my heart has been broken in 2, maybe 3 (lol) But i really do need to move on anyways.
It's sad but life goes on and i feel it makes me stronger in some ways. I totally blame myself for getting hurt because i set myself up. i was warned a multiple amount of times to watch out because "he" hurts alot of girl, but but already knowing that, i still went ahead and took my chances because i liked him so much so more than anything i am mad at myself and i think i might take a while to gte over my being so dumb and ruining all i have wanted for such along time. i found out the bad news in 3rd period. I had never felt so hurt, well almost never. Chels had to ask the teacher to excuse us from the class and she took me outside and calmed me down, i could not be in there i was breaking down. Im so lucky to have a friend like her....
Chels: You are so great and don't ever forget it, i really don't know what i would do without a friend like you, i feel so lucky. i know that as long as i have you to help me make it through, then i'll always have a reason for living. Thanx for everything dear <3
Some good news is I am passing all my classes but one on my report card, and i was sure was failing 4, i had thought. I need 2 credits to be on track so im trying to work extra hard. And thanx to Sara i have been getting in all my Math work for a change...Thanx Blooga Wale Girl (lol)...that is what i am do call her now, froggie girl i guess is history :( Winter Ball in this weekend and hopefully i gte to go, if nothing else i really hope that Chels and Sara can come over friday. Well it's late so im off to sleep. ~*~Nighty Night~*~
It's sad but life goes on and i feel it makes me stronger in some ways. I totally blame myself for getting hurt because i set myself up. i was warned a multiple amount of times to watch out because "he" hurts alot of girl, but but already knowing that, i still went ahead and took my chances because i liked him so much so more than anything i am mad at myself and i think i might take a while to gte over my being so dumb and ruining all i have wanted for such along time. i found out the bad news in 3rd period. I had never felt so hurt, well almost never. Chels had to ask the teacher to excuse us from the class and she took me outside and calmed me down, i could not be in there i was breaking down. Im so lucky to have a friend like her....
Chels: You are so great and don't ever forget it, i really don't know what i would do without a friend like you, i feel so lucky. i know that as long as i have you to help me make it through, then i'll always have a reason for living. Thanx for everything dear <3
Some good news is I am passing all my classes but one on my report card, and i was sure was failing 4, i had thought. I need 2 credits to be on track so im trying to work extra hard. And thanx to Sara i have been getting in all my Math work for a change...Thanx Blooga Wale Girl (lol)...that is what i am do call her now, froggie girl i guess is history :( Winter Ball in this weekend and hopefully i gte to go, if nothing else i really hope that Chels and Sara can come over friday. Well it's late so im off to sleep. ~*~Nighty Night~*~