July?
So now that I pretty much only write in here about once a month...I might as well attempt to make that monthly entry.
Well, it's not really all too surprising to me that this Summer has been nothing special. But now, since I whole-heartedly despise my job, hardly speak to anyone other than Tom, feel completely worn down and exhausted all the time, and am never really up for doing anything ANYWAY, I'm really just looking forward to getting back to Worcester. It's stupid, because when last school year was winding down I hated being there and wanted to be here instead... And now that I've been here a while, I hate being here and want to be back THERE. I'm really starting to wonder if there's ever a happy medium with this...
I plan on being content at Becker this year. The time away from my roommates will have hopefully done us all some good, my attitude will have changed, I'll have my car, so I'll have my freedom when I need it, and I'll be doing what I need to be doing while still having fun at he same time. And for the record, I thought working at Venetucci's would be a good, valuable experience, but pathetically enough I should have just gone back to stocking cleaning supplies at Benny's and save myself the anxiety. Yesterday was a really rough day, but I had a really good emergency late-night drive with Tom. Sat down on a bench at the beach, stared at the water, and just unraveled. I don't think I even blinked, I just zoned out, and we talked and talked and talked. I said some things that I've never even said OUT LOUD before, and found out that maybe I'm not really as messed up as I think I am, and that I could just use some adjustments. I don't think I could ever have had that conversation with anyone else other than Tom. I really do have some of the best friends in the world.
Well, it's not really all too surprising to me that this Summer has been nothing special. But now, since I whole-heartedly despise my job, hardly speak to anyone other than Tom, feel completely worn down and exhausted all the time, and am never really up for doing anything ANYWAY, I'm really just looking forward to getting back to Worcester. It's stupid, because when last school year was winding down I hated being there and wanted to be here instead... And now that I've been here a while, I hate being here and want to be back THERE. I'm really starting to wonder if there's ever a happy medium with this...
I plan on being content at Becker this year. The time away from my roommates will have hopefully done us all some good, my attitude will have changed, I'll have my car, so I'll have my freedom when I need it, and I'll be doing what I need to be doing while still having fun at he same time. And for the record, I thought working at Venetucci's would be a good, valuable experience, but pathetically enough I should have just gone back to stocking cleaning supplies at Benny's and save myself the anxiety. Yesterday was a really rough day, but I had a really good emergency late-night drive with Tom. Sat down on a bench at the beach, stared at the water, and just unraveled. I don't think I even blinked, I just zoned out, and we talked and talked and talked. I said some things that I've never even said OUT LOUD before, and found out that maybe I'm not really as messed up as I think I am, and that I could just use some adjustments. I don't think I could ever have had that conversation with anyone else other than Tom. I really do have some of the best friends in the world.