hmmmm...
I haven't realized how long its been since i wrote in this thing! a lot has happend, i finished school last week, and graduated with my associates degree on sunday. I start my new full time summer job on thursday...i work second shift...uggghh...I've been thinking a lot about things that i have done in the past, and realized that i am a bitch!! no joke, i am the biggest bitch alive.....i never really thought about it until i recently hurt someone's feelings when they told me they loved me....i feel like shit....but with everything else going on in my life right now...i didn't have time to think about it til now. that's another thing that boggles my mind to no end....how could he honestly say that he loved me when he never knew anything about me at all? it amazes me that he could even say it when he doesn't even want to get to know me...just BE with me...wtf is that! if you wanted to be with me then you would've taken the time to really get to know me. and i hate not being completely honest with you, but there is someone else i just can't seem to let go...and it wasn't fair to you to keep on pretending that everything was 'perfect'in our relationship... i wish we could be together but like i said i hate not being honest with you, and i feel that i never could be. meh enough of that
my sister is finally moving into her new house...and i am gonna be working my ass off for the next couple of days helping her clean and paint it, i'm actually excited, but its gonna be hard work. i have my last doctors appointment on thursday in ann arbor....hopefully the doc tells me he never wants to see me again! that would make at least one thing better in this hell hole that i am currently in.
i hate missing out on great opportunities.........that is one of my biggest pet peeves...and i just recently missed out on yet another one.....i have the worst timing in the world and its actually kind of sucks...but if you are reading this you know that i feel you are the best thing that could've happened to me and if we can make it work, then i'm definitely willing to try....you don't have to be scared about it, cuz i've never been this honest with anyone in my life about any of the things i have told you. i trust you completely now but i just wish that you could open up and tell me everything...it hurts to see you hurt, but u know i need you in my life, and i want to u to be there...don't let our differences keep us apart.
my sister is finally moving into her new house...and i am gonna be working my ass off for the next couple of days helping her clean and paint it, i'm actually excited, but its gonna be hard work. i have my last doctors appointment on thursday in ann arbor....hopefully the doc tells me he never wants to see me again! that would make at least one thing better in this hell hole that i am currently in.
i hate missing out on great opportunities.........that is one of my biggest pet peeves...and i just recently missed out on yet another one.....i have the worst timing in the world and its actually kind of sucks...but if you are reading this you know that i feel you are the best thing that could've happened to me and if we can make it work, then i'm definitely willing to try....you don't have to be scared about it, cuz i've never been this honest with anyone in my life about any of the things i have told you. i trust you completely now but i just wish that you could open up and tell me everything...it hurts to see you hurt, but u know i need you in my life, and i want to u to be there...don't let our differences keep us apart.