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So apparantly im the most difficult person in the WORLD according to my mother.
Why couldn't she have just stayed gone?
Why was I so sad the whole time that she wasn't there for prom? Because apparantly she didn't care.
All she wants to do is fight with me, she's just like everyone else....
"You're parents are the only ones that'll be there till the end" bullshit...be there for what...to make me feel like crap? Yeah awesome..apparantly im pig headed and selfish and I have no friends because of it according to her.
I wasn't aware I didn't have any friends...all I ever want to do is help people..all I ever do is care....is that really that wrong?
I'm just sick of drama...I'm sick of getting yelled at...I'm sick of fighting...I'm sick of feeling so unhappy...
I'm sick of wanting to leave so bad but at the same time being so scarred and not wanting to because this is all I have ever known.
I hate my parents....why can't my mom just be there for me? Why is e verything always a freaking fight? I don't want to stay with her stupid friends for an entire weekend, I want to take my own car to west palm and go to my preview thing and come home, but it's a big deal...and she starts going off on everything thats wrong with me....I ask her to stop cuz I have too much to deal with right now and she keeps going on caling me names....why?
I feel like I'm losing everyone around me anyway...
The people I was closest to have all gone in different directions and I can't take it...
We're almost done...why screw it all up now?
I'm sick of pretending like I'm okay all the time.
And im sick of being talked about...stop making assumptions...just come to me.
Whatever - I wish God would just give me a break for once.
Why couldn't she have just stayed gone?
Why was I so sad the whole time that she wasn't there for prom? Because apparantly she didn't care.
All she wants to do is fight with me, she's just like everyone else....
"You're parents are the only ones that'll be there till the end" bullshit...be there for what...to make me feel like crap? Yeah awesome..apparantly im pig headed and selfish and I have no friends because of it according to her.
I wasn't aware I didn't have any friends...all I ever want to do is help people..all I ever do is care....is that really that wrong?
I'm just sick of drama...I'm sick of getting yelled at...I'm sick of fighting...I'm sick of feeling so unhappy...
I'm sick of wanting to leave so bad but at the same time being so scarred and not wanting to because this is all I have ever known.
I hate my parents....why can't my mom just be there for me? Why is e verything always a freaking fight? I don't want to stay with her stupid friends for an entire weekend, I want to take my own car to west palm and go to my preview thing and come home, but it's a big deal...and she starts going off on everything thats wrong with me....I ask her to stop cuz I have too much to deal with right now and she keeps going on caling me names....why?
I feel like I'm losing everyone around me anyway...
The people I was closest to have all gone in different directions and I can't take it...
We're almost done...why screw it all up now?
I'm sick of pretending like I'm okay all the time.
And im sick of being talked about...stop making assumptions...just come to me.
Whatever - I wish God would just give me a break for once.