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oh man, i need to get my act together. just a simple song can remind me of how fun and amazing it is to be in love. maybe it wasn't truly love with hunter, and everyone tells me it wasn't... but i was so greatful for that feeling. i want it again. i want to be deliriously happy being with someone. i must stop being a "whore" to do this i think? i dunno. i suck at all this relationship stuff. i know i want to get laid. a lot. but i want to truly have some feelings for someone. i've realized that if you have sex with them, you're automatically discounted for relationship material... which sucks, because i wanna test drive. call me an american consumer, but i wanna know how the goods operate first. i have no morals telling me otherwise. i follow all my morals, and i just don't think that should be one for my sexuality barring consent.