Halfway there
I have reached the halfway mark of my third and final clinical, it seems very unreal. Lately I have spent time driving near my old college neighborhood and running in my childhood neighborhood. Both remind me of weird things, things I haven't thought of in a very long time. Reminders of a long phone call turned fight, walking it off in the dark around Bethesda, scarring my parents. Thinking how much I honestly hated him, but how I loved him and would never find another. Going grocery shopping with another years later, thinking at 22 how domestic it felt and how I knew this was the wrong one.
An eternity later, I am moving in with a boy. I must say that is much more domestic than grocery shopping together. It still feels weird sometimes not to have a wondering eye or omit the "I have a boyfriend" detail. Things i would do even when I was mostly happy with others. It is so different to be content, satisfied. I still question things, normal worries I think. But I don't long for another so that must be a good sign.
I have a ton of paperwork to fill out for the first real job. It isn't that far away, but i can't imagine making as much as i am going to be. One paycheck will be more then what i have in my bank account right now. Its not like I will be rich, but I will be comfortable and not having to struggle.
An eternity later, I am moving in with a boy. I must say that is much more domestic than grocery shopping together. It still feels weird sometimes not to have a wondering eye or omit the "I have a boyfriend" detail. Things i would do even when I was mostly happy with others. It is so different to be content, satisfied. I still question things, normal worries I think. But I don't long for another so that must be a good sign.
I have a ton of paperwork to fill out for the first real job. It isn't that far away, but i can't imagine making as much as i am going to be. One paycheck will be more then what i have in my bank account right now. Its not like I will be rich, but I will be comfortable and not having to struggle.