And the result is in
So after all that tedious mindless studying guess who missed a B on her ochem test by 3 pts? ugh let me tell u how frustrating it is to go back and see all my stupid mistakes! ah well im gonna see if i can the talk the prof into givin me some pts i think i shoulda gotten to begin with! u know i gotta say its not a very pleasant feeling having low expectations from your friends..u know like certain things about a person no matter how much u tell urself that they have changed and wont screw up..u cant change em..and when they do screwup ur not as disappointed as u want to be bc a little bit of u knew deep down inside that they were gonna screw up like it or not u know? i try to be forgiving my parents have tried to instill in me a sense of forgiveness...i think i forgive alot esp to ppl i care about they get more chances than other ppl..but sometimes i gotta wonder no matter how much i care is there a point where i say ok that was the absolute last time i forgive u from here on out u screw up ur out? idk it seems a difficult decision to make..kinda scary thought to not havin ppl who have become so much a part of ur life not there anymore..but i think and i firmly believe that sometimes god sends ppl into ur life to help u out of a tough spot and once their purpose has been achieved weather we like it or not its their time to go...sometimes i wonder what life woulda been like if i could stick to decisions i make better...oh well thats all neither here nor there...let me tell u all some exciting things...like navarati is coming up (my absolute favorite indian holiday)... 2 friday and saturdays filled with dancing and gossip and new cloths and friends till 3 in the morning...i cant wait...the first weekend(this friday and saturday!) im gonna be in town at ICC like every year..but the second weekend im goin up to UF to do garba there and have my raas partner back...see my best friend hiranya and i have been raas partners since we were old enuff to go out and dance...it will be wierd to have someone else take her place now that shes up at UF..so b4 she left back in august we decided that when navarati comes around the first weekend shell come home to do garba and raas and the second weekend ill drive up..that way well both have each other to do raas with and she wont have to come home both weekends...i had a hell of a time convincing my mother but i did it and now im set to go! what else? ah yes so India Festival is comin up again like every yr in november...november 6th to be exact..my parents and i had decided that i wasnt gonna take part in anything this yr bc of my crazy workload...but u know if u truly badly want something from deep down inside and u ask for it with a pure heart from god..he/she will ALWAYS deliver...i say this bc i have competed in india festival every year since 1995...i have never once not been in an item for india festival...its become like a mandatory thing in my life..when my parents and i decided i wasnt gonna do it this year i cried alot...dance is my life and it was hard thinkin i wasnt gonna be on stage this yr like i am every yr...i even considered not goin to the festival at all bc i didnt know if i could handle it..but then yesterday when i went to Esha's pooja hiranya's mom asked me to be in a dance with her and a buncha other ppl...so i guess im in...i mean im only goin to like 3 practices and of course the actual event but still being in india festival has revived my spirits considerably..i know it sounds lame..but its like ppl who do something every yr for yrs together and then one yr they dont do it..it leaves a little hole in ur heart..anyway i think ive rambled on long enuff..oh yea one last thing..the lady from the lakeland USF campus called and shes comin to meet me and see "how well i dance" this friday at ICC..since im performing for her class i figured she has a rite to meet me and make sure im an acceptable dancer b4 i go on stage in her class..heavn knows im not anwhere near good but i think im decent so well let her see and if she says no way u comin to my school i wont be to shocked lol