one more to go
ok so bio lab, psych, world perspectives and orgo finals done...only one more to go. bio class final 2m at 8 then im done till spring!...psych went well i managed a B+ in the class as my final grade...and i find my orgo grade 2m..*massive stress* im soo hopin that i did well in it...it wasnt as hard as i thought it would be...but it wasnt as easy as i wanted it to be...idk im hopin to get at least a 60pts of the test rite bc with the 20 pts added to it thatll gimmie an A on the test a high C hopefully in the class! maybe even a B with a little hope...u know the holidays seem to be the hardest to get through every yr..it seems i never have an easy holiday season...something is always goin on with me that just never allows me to enjoy the season with the ease i would love to...last yr it was the loss of a very good friend bc of a quarrel that in the end showed me that it was best i broke it off with her bc it lead me to another person who held my hand and grew to be an vital part of me..and this yr i again experience the feelings of loss and this time they hurt a bit more than last yr bc im a bit older and this person was soo much closer and so much more than just a friend...oh how i wish god would help me out a little and gimme a break once season...idk what to do..someone told me today, which i hope is true and i want very badly to be true, that "be brave and face what the lord has sent ur way, for thou not knoweth the future." of course she also was quoting but the message was the same...and how i hope that i can draw strength from her (u know who u are!)and from rely on my wonderful memories to be over this sorrow before the new semester starts...its hard to hurt as much as all this...who knew ppl silently chip at ur heart til b4 u know theyre permanently there and u wonder when u let ur guard down to allow that to happen to u...esp when ur normally so careful about relinquishing ur guard around ppl! who knew how much hurt is involved in human relationships of any kind...friends, loving someone, even hating someone involves such a complex link of hurt and hate! its so odd that at a time when beauty and joy are supposed to permeate everything..it seems that things simply look duller and sadder and just not as they used to! and its soo unbelievable how the span of 7 hrs can give u soo much and then just one and a half hrs with someone can take away so much from u as well...ok enuff rambling im goin to study my bio for my final 2m...wish me luck all!