i'm so back and forth...
Do I love or is it a wanna be? I remember being in love once..and it was so alive and i felt it and i knew it...i know i still love him but could never be with him again. With this new guy...it's like i want to love him but i don' feel the same as the first so i don't think i am but then when he's gone to long or the thought of him leaving me...i get sad and i wish it won't happen. But then again sometimes i feel if he did...then it wouldn't effect me...it's all jumbled and i'm confused but i don't want to think about it cause it only has been 2 months after all...i'm such a lamer.