razor blades could never kill this kind of cancer

[starcrossed__x]

well last night i did something that ive been thinking about doing for a while, but i was just terrified to ever bring it up. now im not really sure why i was so scared, it was easier than i thought. i told chad i wanted to take a break. but its not exactly how it sounds. considering he lives with me, how much of a break could i get. i explained to him that he isnt doing anything wrong and im really happy in our relationship, im just getting tired of being so serious with someone for so long. i want to be able to out on dates with guys, and spend the weekend with my girl friends, and just be free for a while. without always having him worry about what im doing and who im with and where i am. im not trying to find another relationship, i already have one. im just taking a vacation from it for a while, i guess you could say. it might not make sense, but it doesnt have to. i think it'll turn out to be a good thing for us.

other than that, i had an interview sort of thing with the manager at panera bread.
hopefully ill be starting in a week.
its about time my lazy ass gets a job.

this weekend has been pretty lame, considering im grounded.
jeff is turning into a nazi, i guess he just "Cares about me" or wants to ruin my life.
ive just been making up excuses to go places with chad to get out of the house.
im thinking tommorow will be a much better day.