Spite
My mom is now coming next weekend out of spite. I told her I didn't want her there if she's going to attempt to make me miserable the whole time. She of course will hear none of it and is sticking to her guns. What she doesn't realize is that If she even tries to upset me or make a scene there are a room full of angry women waiting to shoot her down and tell her how it is.
Really, I'm just tired. I just want a peaceful, enjoyable, lovely afternoon, with the people I care about. My mom of course seems to be on a path of destruction on this one. I still have a feeling that she is going to back out at the last minute on this. That's what she has always done, and I would almost rather perfer it at this point. I know if she doesn't show up or if something goes wrong she's going to blame me. I'm really tired of being pinned as the selfish, blame-ee.
I don't know where I would have been without the support of my friends and family through all this. Just everyone's reassurance and talking with me about it really helped me through everything. I couldn't ask for a better support system.
I really don't know if I have it in me to forgive her and start over again after this. I don't know how much more I can take from her. I don't want to turn my back on her but at the same time, I don't want to face something like this again.
I'm going to have an amazing weekend off this weekend. And an amazing weekend next weekend. Fuck my momma drama. Fo shizzle.
Really, I'm just tired. I just want a peaceful, enjoyable, lovely afternoon, with the people I care about. My mom of course seems to be on a path of destruction on this one. I still have a feeling that she is going to back out at the last minute on this. That's what she has always done, and I would almost rather perfer it at this point. I know if she doesn't show up or if something goes wrong she's going to blame me. I'm really tired of being pinned as the selfish, blame-ee.
I don't know where I would have been without the support of my friends and family through all this. Just everyone's reassurance and talking with me about it really helped me through everything. I couldn't ask for a better support system.
I really don't know if I have it in me to forgive her and start over again after this. I don't know how much more I can take from her. I don't want to turn my back on her but at the same time, I don't want to face something like this again.
I'm going to have an amazing weekend off this weekend. And an amazing weekend next weekend. Fuck my momma drama. Fo shizzle.