things are pickin up!

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well, things are starting to get better - im not bummed about matt anymore because well, its pretty much over.... and im ok with that. *which matt* you ask? both of them... when matt krieg came over, some things happened and i figured out real quick that it isnt meant to be. and matt wiegand, well, hes a little harder to give up. i really do care about him a lot and i want to be with him more than anyone i know buuuuuuutttt... hes stuck on amie and i dont want to push something that isnt necessarily there. the way he is with amie he NEVER was with me and ill admit that im slightly jealous, but that comes with the territory. but i can let go too... and seeing him and amie friday night definately put things back into perspective again... i want someone whose heart is focused on me, not deterred by the thought of someone else. plain and simple.. ill just wait and see what god has in store for me.... i have a *date* or non-date-thing tomorrow night.. we will see how that goes.

im going skydiving saturday.. should be fun!! say a prayer for me saturday around noon.. maybe it will help my parachute open!! gosh that would suck.. to eat gravel after falling 2 miles!! not much to put in the casket after that, eh?
~bethany joy~