another post already...
Waiting days
Waiting weeks
Waiting months
(please don't make it a year)
In high school, I liked to tape music from the radio
creating random patterns of music and clips
of the songs that I liked
70s classics - 80s new wave - late 90s grunge - etc.
but the songs aren't what I remember
rather it's the titles that I gave to my mixed tapes
that are relevant
like...
unreality
mercurial ambivalence (which I don't think makes sense)
waiting for the charm
The point is I'm still waiting and waiting and waiting for the charm. The idea being that while the third time may be the charm, waiting for the third time is what takes forever
This is not about arbitrary numbers. Or set amounts of time.
It's about me being constantly told that my life is set to change
(by the powers that be)
Or even doing everything I can to move forward
but despite these things...
I am still waiting for the charm