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Seeing as there seems to be some kind of famine of sadness passing through our humble little town, I suppose today I'll just write about my thoughts on that...although they don't really matter as much as I would like them to but I guess thats ok because I keep this journal for my own pity's sake.
Last year in 6th grade when I had gone through my sadness stage, it was so dreadfully earlier than everyone else's which just happens to be this year. But see its just the fact that everyone is surviving through it together, all giving each other a boost over the hill. And it keeps me up at night knowing the fact that I never had a boost let alone a slight nudge. Last year when I was going through all my FUCKING SHIT the most people would do was just gossip about it, and talk about it behined my back. Talk about being kicked while your down. I know I probably sound horribly selfish right now judging the fact that I should be talking about other people's problems...but i dont know, it just kind of hurts inside knowing that I never had the pleasure of being offered a hand to hold in the darkest times.
Remembering all of the things that had happened last year makes me wanna...well I hate to say it but...die. Sometimes I find myself glued to the TV screen feeling the utmost jelousy for Mario in my brothers video games because he has the option to start over from a particular point in the game.
But even though I have said all of the above, I still feel very much sympathy for all you kids who aren't happy with their life and has now learned the hardway that life isn't all its perked up to be. I still feel so horribly bad for all those people who are suffering from sadness...or anything worse because NO ONE should have to go through it, no matter who you are.
I just wish mine would go away...
I really wish I could write more but unfortunatley its church time. I'm leaving you now.
<3Yours Truly
Sad song lyrics go here
Last year in 6th grade when I had gone through my sadness stage, it was so dreadfully earlier than everyone else's which just happens to be this year. But see its just the fact that everyone is surviving through it together, all giving each other a boost over the hill. And it keeps me up at night knowing the fact that I never had a boost let alone a slight nudge. Last year when I was going through all my FUCKING SHIT the most people would do was just gossip about it, and talk about it behined my back. Talk about being kicked while your down. I know I probably sound horribly selfish right now judging the fact that I should be talking about other people's problems...but i dont know, it just kind of hurts inside knowing that I never had the pleasure of being offered a hand to hold in the darkest times.
Remembering all of the things that had happened last year makes me wanna...well I hate to say it but...die. Sometimes I find myself glued to the TV screen feeling the utmost jelousy for Mario in my brothers video games because he has the option to start over from a particular point in the game.
But even though I have said all of the above, I still feel very much sympathy for all you kids who aren't happy with their life and has now learned the hardway that life isn't all its perked up to be. I still feel so horribly bad for all those people who are suffering from sadness...or anything worse because NO ONE should have to go through it, no matter who you are.
I just wish mine would go away...
I really wish I could write more but unfortunatley its church time. I'm leaving you now.
<3Yours Truly
Sad song lyrics go here