The Usual Christmas Post
I've been feeling a little weird these past couple of weeks. I know what it may be, but I guess I don't want to admit it. I hate to sound all anal or self-knowing when I analyze my self, but it seems that I am truly moving on past the teen/high school phase of my life. I believe (and others around me should tell me if they believe it too)I am maturing and the things that I love are slowly...changing somehow. It seems like I work all the time- next week they are going to move me to the electronics section, which you could consider a promotion. Video games are still interesting to me, but I have no time to play them as well as watch my favorite movies/shows. The new relationships I make and the new friends that I meet show me a life out of what I got comfortable to in the last couple of years. Hell, even the internet's changed for me (a bit). I don't seem to be going to deep with my obessions, they have become useless in my mind. Everything has changed and one big example is Christmas.
Christmas didn't seeem like normal this year. I mean, the childhood wonderment of Christmas time had run off years ago but the tinest spark that had remained has faded. Christmas, the coroporate, consumer based holiday had turned ugly for me. Possibly due to the fact that I worked during that time in retail, where people's true Christmas "spirt" was shown. Plus, I had to work on Christmas Eve and the entire week after that. I asked for only one "special, high end" present and I got it- my iPod nano. And I had the cash to buy almost everyone a present- while my grandmother cried tears of joy that her grandbaby used her money to buy her a new stereo, my mother showed her disappointment and asked (oh so subtly) that I return both things I got her for some damn talking answering machine. She has never complained before, and I'll be damned if she would have if I was still younger or jobless.
So yeah, that's my holiday depressor.
(There's something to enjoy though- We're out of school until the 23 :D)
Christmas didn't seeem like normal this year. I mean, the childhood wonderment of Christmas time had run off years ago but the tinest spark that had remained has faded. Christmas, the coroporate, consumer based holiday had turned ugly for me. Possibly due to the fact that I worked during that time in retail, where people's true Christmas "spirt" was shown. Plus, I had to work on Christmas Eve and the entire week after that. I asked for only one "special, high end" present and I got it- my iPod nano. And I had the cash to buy almost everyone a present- while my grandmother cried tears of joy that her grandbaby used her money to buy her a new stereo, my mother showed her disappointment and asked (oh so subtly) that I return both things I got her for some damn talking answering machine. She has never complained before, and I'll be damned if she would have if I was still younger or jobless.
So yeah, that's my holiday depressor.
(There's something to enjoy though- We're out of school until the 23 :D)