New room
yesterday i had a bad day at home... My parents blamed me for everything that went wrong... well i forgot to mention, that they moved my bed To another room... and in Short, i don't like it there.
Even in teh Frucking hospital they took care to place me in aroom in which I could see out teh door but also if I turned my head I could look out the window.... That is one of the 2 things I want in a room... the other thing is that my bed is placed against a wall to my left. Thats all I want in a room!
Í don't care if its big or small or whatever... I just need to see out the door and the window and be able to lay against a wall....
well In this new room, I can only see out the window, and There is a space between my bed and the wall... another thing is that my bed in beneath a wall that is like this / It isn't straight... which scares me.....
The reason why I need my bed to stand in such a way is because I otherwise panic... I told my parent but they just laugh at me and won't move my bed back.... Thank god i'm still in the hospital, But still! I don't understand why they don't let me go back! Thats all I want!
I understand they want to use my old room for storage, but they can also do that in the new room! I don't understand why They won't let me go back..... It's not my fault I'm autistic and I just need to do these things to feel safe!
Tomorrow I'm going to talk with my parents again and read them a list why I want to go back to my old room... lets hope they let me... This evening my mum and I had another huge fight about it... I gave her some of my reasons but she just laughs about it and then when I tell her I'm serious, she screams at me about How I always want things my way and i'm spoiled at so on....
ITS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT! you think I like being autistic? You think I like being scared of nearly everything and be frantic about nearly everything i do! Check my door 5 times to see if its closed, set my alarm 8 different times to make sure its on... touch teh wall 3 times before i go to sleep.... YOU THINK I LIKE IT?I hate it But i can't help it.... Tomorrow i'm going to talk to my doctor and Psych,,, Hopefully they can help me!