I will sleep with the lights on, so if i wake in the night, your picture is clearly in sight.
This Spring Break has been nothingg less then eventful. It was been great. The weekend in Pompano Beach was awesome. I hope Alexis had a happy Birthday. We all had so much fun. I have a so many pics to upload too.
I hope everyone had a happy Easter, I did. We came home from Pompano and i got 2 Easter baskets, one from Alexis' mom and one from the easter bunny that came to my house. I talked to my mom for a little while, she was sick :(, then Alex came over for a little while.
Today is my mommy's birthday. I did'nt get her anything. I wrote her this note, It made me cry when i wrote it and i made me a coupon book. It's really cute. I also made her the world's ugliest card. Tonight we are going out to this fancy resteraunt. I get to dress up, wee.
Nothing is rite anymore. There are so mnay thing that are messing me up. There are like only 2 things keeping me happy and sane. I just can't do this anymore. So many people are so obvilious (s/p) to everything. Period. I wish some people who were once theer were now and saw that thinga are'nt okay. Are things ever okay though? Am i EVER happy for a whole day. Ha i wish. No one understands. No not even Alex. Every night I talk to my mom, and it's not always talking, i cry to her about how much i hate this place. I hate the people here and I hate the people at charter. Not to mention certin people. Some people need to grow the eff up and realize when enough is too much. "Go die", Sometimes i wish when people say that to someone that the person would, because I think if someone is going to say "go die" the person who said it deserves to live with guilt for the rest of their lives. I regret EVER saying that to anyone in the past.
I realize there is no one to trust. I trust 3 people. two of them are give-in's but the other one is someone people would not expect. That person should know who they are though. People are such hypocrites (s/p), backstabbers, and 2-faced it is so unbeliveable.
I wanna go back to how I was last year at one point, care-free, happy and not so stressed. But few things feel rite anymore.
As stupid as this sounds, I want a friend like me, Someone who will do anything for me, love me. blah blah, I know the commenet syaing kaleen I love you. Yeah im sure you do.
I have made a decision that kills me inside so much, This time I am going to stick with it.
how come my life ain't like this movie?
i should try to look some more like that
maybe then i could be a movie star
and maybe then you'd always laugh at my jokes
'cause life would be just like this movie
and i would never feel alone
in fact all the problems that i have would go away
and i would forget how to feel sad
-TheRocketSummer
I hope everyone had a happy Easter, I did. We came home from Pompano and i got 2 Easter baskets, one from Alexis' mom and one from the easter bunny that came to my house. I talked to my mom for a little while, she was sick :(, then Alex came over for a little while.
Today is my mommy's birthday. I did'nt get her anything. I wrote her this note, It made me cry when i wrote it and i made me a coupon book. It's really cute. I also made her the world's ugliest card. Tonight we are going out to this fancy resteraunt. I get to dress up, wee.
Nothing is rite anymore. There are so mnay thing that are messing me up. There are like only 2 things keeping me happy and sane. I just can't do this anymore. So many people are so obvilious (s/p) to everything. Period. I wish some people who were once theer were now and saw that thinga are'nt okay. Are things ever okay though? Am i EVER happy for a whole day. Ha i wish. No one understands. No not even Alex. Every night I talk to my mom, and it's not always talking, i cry to her about how much i hate this place. I hate the people here and I hate the people at charter. Not to mention certin people. Some people need to grow the eff up and realize when enough is too much. "Go die", Sometimes i wish when people say that to someone that the person would, because I think if someone is going to say "go die" the person who said it deserves to live with guilt for the rest of their lives. I regret EVER saying that to anyone in the past.
I realize there is no one to trust. I trust 3 people. two of them are give-in's but the other one is someone people would not expect. That person should know who they are though. People are such hypocrites (s/p), backstabbers, and 2-faced it is so unbeliveable.
I wanna go back to how I was last year at one point, care-free, happy and not so stressed. But few things feel rite anymore.
As stupid as this sounds, I want a friend like me, Someone who will do anything for me, love me. blah blah, I know the commenet syaing kaleen I love you. Yeah im sure you do.
I have made a decision that kills me inside so much, This time I am going to stick with it.
how come my life ain't like this movie?
i should try to look some more like that
maybe then i could be a movie star
and maybe then you'd always laugh at my jokes
'cause life would be just like this movie
and i would never feel alone
in fact all the problems that i have would go away
and i would forget how to feel sad
-TheRocketSummer