so long sweet summer...
"cause every pane of glass that your pebbles tap
negates the pains i went through to avoid you
and every little pat on the shoulder for attention fails to mention i still hate you"
nothing more to say. im a hopeless romantic...
okay just clearing up somthing for all, the love life of sam, which went from laddy daddy da to non exsistant. and great, untop of the fact that i have been dying in my dreams because i miss a "something [as rahlie would make me put it]", i had this so bareing fact that struck me today; school is in like 2 weeks, and im fucked. i went through like post school phycoticness, and started flipping out. i took out the sax, but screwed at that, started to read the honnor books, couldn't read past like 4 pages of farenheit, and made people test me on my math. today, i was freaking. like for the most part, untill i realized, im not alone, half the student body had been just as fried as me this summer, and cant remeber theyre 3 times tables. yikes, were gonna all be screwed. and untop of this, this saxaphone problem has been killing ! me. the fact that i cant play more than 1 scale, and remebr 4 notes. this is a huge problem in my case. daddys a big muscian, an important, and serious one. and im..daddy's muscial daughter. and must be first chair, must do jazz, must compete on duet for level 6 jazz nyssma. i should try to stride to be sam, the musical genius, and shit im going to let him down so much this year. wow as you can tell, im not handling the back to school craze well. i mean we all get that day when it just like strikes us, and it had to be today for me :(
So past few days have been-tiring. i've been so tired latly, for me of all people consideing im turning insomniatic.....
-Went to emmis with court a few days ago, ha that was awsome considering em chopped all my hair off!ha i have like no hair now, its pretty sicckk. it was such an odd decsion i just was like "emily, cut my hair off", yea samm! spontanious here. so yea we took pics of my hair cutting ceremony [check site] and such, and stayed up all night, no joke.
-Went to the beach with the soccer team which was pretty cool. actually, really funny. me and ash and nicole and rebecca went streaking through the nude beach, and took pictures, and wow were soo cool. and then met up with dianna, rachel, and laurel for a little, and such. it was actually a fun time. cyclones<3 then went straight to soccer. [ive been doing a lot of that latly too]
-Went to ashelys with emily and ivan a few nights ago. it was pretty cool for the most part, considering ivan was obessesed! with ashelys computer. lol. and we started to watch fightclub, but yea i fell asleep, becasue im a fucking tired dushe. so ash let me borrow the entertainment.
-So that leads me to 2 days of watching fightclub<3 and sleeping, and note taking, and listing to like nonstop music. im glad i decided to take a few dyas off, my head hurt from no sleep.
-Today i had soccer, which was pretty good. hes been complimenting me a lot latly, probelly becasue he sences that i don't really approve of him that much, but im warming up to him. then wen bowling and towning with patrice and tripp<3 had a mucho enjoyable night :D. i miss towning, havn't gone in s while...
well im tired, yet again, and trying to get 10 hours in tonight.laterr.
negates the pains i went through to avoid you
and every little pat on the shoulder for attention fails to mention i still hate you"
nothing more to say. im a hopeless romantic...
okay just clearing up somthing for all, the love life of sam, which went from laddy daddy da to non exsistant. and great, untop of the fact that i have been dying in my dreams because i miss a "something [as rahlie would make me put it]", i had this so bareing fact that struck me today; school is in like 2 weeks, and im fucked. i went through like post school phycoticness, and started flipping out. i took out the sax, but screwed at that, started to read the honnor books, couldn't read past like 4 pages of farenheit, and made people test me on my math. today, i was freaking. like for the most part, untill i realized, im not alone, half the student body had been just as fried as me this summer, and cant remeber theyre 3 times tables. yikes, were gonna all be screwed. and untop of this, this saxaphone problem has been killing ! me. the fact that i cant play more than 1 scale, and remebr 4 notes. this is a huge problem in my case. daddys a big muscian, an important, and serious one. and im..daddy's muscial daughter. and must be first chair, must do jazz, must compete on duet for level 6 jazz nyssma. i should try to stride to be sam, the musical genius, and shit im going to let him down so much this year. wow as you can tell, im not handling the back to school craze well. i mean we all get that day when it just like strikes us, and it had to be today for me :(
So past few days have been-tiring. i've been so tired latly, for me of all people consideing im turning insomniatic.....
-Went to emmis with court a few days ago, ha that was awsome considering em chopped all my hair off!ha i have like no hair now, its pretty sicckk. it was such an odd decsion i just was like "emily, cut my hair off", yea samm! spontanious here. so yea we took pics of my hair cutting ceremony [check site] and such, and stayed up all night, no joke.
-Went to the beach with the soccer team which was pretty cool. actually, really funny. me and ash and nicole and rebecca went streaking through the nude beach, and took pictures, and wow were soo cool. and then met up with dianna, rachel, and laurel for a little, and such. it was actually a fun time. cyclones<3 then went straight to soccer. [ive been doing a lot of that latly too]
-Went to ashelys with emily and ivan a few nights ago. it was pretty cool for the most part, considering ivan was obessesed! with ashelys computer. lol. and we started to watch fightclub, but yea i fell asleep, becasue im a fucking tired dushe. so ash let me borrow the entertainment.
-So that leads me to 2 days of watching fightclub<3 and sleeping, and note taking, and listing to like nonstop music. im glad i decided to take a few dyas off, my head hurt from no sleep.
-Today i had soccer, which was pretty good. hes been complimenting me a lot latly, probelly becasue he sences that i don't really approve of him that much, but im warming up to him. then wen bowling and towning with patrice and tripp<3 had a mucho enjoyable night :D. i miss towning, havn't gone in s while...
well im tired, yet again, and trying to get 10 hours in tonight.laterr.