so
i haven't written in this thing for so long.
uhm. i was looking through my old entries and saw one where i said something about how i couldn't wait to be at that place where i know i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be.
what if i can't stay at that place forever? never thought of that. erm i guess that's not where i'm supposed to stay forever if i CAN'T stay there forever hahaha..
well for the longest time i thought i would find that here. then right before i left... i found it in a person. in that moment. in his arms. looking into his eyes. "i love you" i said choking on tears.. hah. and he said it back "i love you too." a little squeeze. one last kiss.
hah. leaving someone you love is never easy. it's very hard in fact. but it had to be done i guess.
and now i'm here in this strange place all alone it seems.
sure there are plenty of people here but i'll probably feel alone for quite some time.
it takes time to fit in.
it took me so long in denver... and maybe that's why it's so damn frustrating.
i fit in there. i knew lots of people. always had something to do. i was comfortable dammit.
and now i'm extremely uncomfortable and out of place. of course i'm going to be sad and lonely!
i just keep wondering why the FUCK i did this to myself!!!
time will tell. i know i'm here for a reason. please God, let me see what i'm doing here?!
uhm. i was looking through my old entries and saw one where i said something about how i couldn't wait to be at that place where i know i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be.
what if i can't stay at that place forever? never thought of that. erm i guess that's not where i'm supposed to stay forever if i CAN'T stay there forever hahaha..
well for the longest time i thought i would find that here. then right before i left... i found it in a person. in that moment. in his arms. looking into his eyes. "i love you" i said choking on tears.. hah. and he said it back "i love you too." a little squeeze. one last kiss.
hah. leaving someone you love is never easy. it's very hard in fact. but it had to be done i guess.
and now i'm here in this strange place all alone it seems.
sure there are plenty of people here but i'll probably feel alone for quite some time.
it takes time to fit in.
it took me so long in denver... and maybe that's why it's so damn frustrating.
i fit in there. i knew lots of people. always had something to do. i was comfortable dammit.
and now i'm extremely uncomfortable and out of place. of course i'm going to be sad and lonely!
i just keep wondering why the FUCK i did this to myself!!!
time will tell. i know i'm here for a reason. please God, let me see what i'm doing here?!