what am i thinking
maybe im scared to admit that i gave up the greatest thing that ever happened to me...maybe im ashamed because i failed and gave up when things got a little rough like my mom and i said i never would. i promised something and i didnt keep that promise. i dont exactly know how to say sorry. i dont know how to pick up the phone and call you because im so scared of rejection that maybe this time you wont forgive me and im sure thats the last thing i deserve. im a piece of shit for a friend and i myself can admit it but what can i do. im only human right, i was never really good with friends in the first place and you knew that since the day you walked into my life but with everything you never wanted to leave it. im so scared that maybe i will die when im 17 because ive made myself believe it and as much as you didnt want it to happen i so did and i so hope is does. you made me whole you honestly did and i dont know why i got so mad and now i just want to sit here and cry because i just let you go like you were nothing when really you were everything. im not too worried about anymore because people make mistakes and they learn from them and after all this ive learned so much more. ive learned not to take shit for granted especially the people you love because i know with everything i love you more then anyone ever shae marie. you are my bestfriend no matter where we go in life youll be the first memory that comes to my mind and youll be the best for sure. maybe its better if we didnt go back to being friends since i obviously occupied you so much to where you gave up some friends but that was never my intention. i had the greatest intentions for you and i still do with all that is in me. maybe after everything this will make us stronger and when we ssee each other we will smile and remember everything we went through and how we made each other light up with joy. im sorry for everything ive done to you and for making your life hell. i hope you get those friends back and that your happy thats all that really matters.
well alec has a new girlfriend kinda makes me sad but ive gotten to see past it because i dont like him anymore hes just a friend he will just always be someone i remember. daubin is so cute but has a girlfriend ugh. im watching pulp fiction in school haha
halloween is something ill remember it was good.
i miss my family guesss in the end thats all you have left is your family because friends come and go that quick.
i got to say ive had alot of friends thatll never forget just because they made me see life so much more then what it was and as much as we dont talk anymore. such as mercedes and amber and i mean ashli....it was the group that made me a better person and im happy that their lives are good. im happy that amber and merc found someone they love so much and i hope they never lose it just hold on to it forever because when its gone, youll fuckin miss it with everything in you. and ashli your still the greatest person i have yet to meet and probably will ever meet and things shouldnt get in the way of us because in the end nothing can break this friendship up WE ARE ONE.
well alec has a new girlfriend kinda makes me sad but ive gotten to see past it because i dont like him anymore hes just a friend he will just always be someone i remember. daubin is so cute but has a girlfriend ugh. im watching pulp fiction in school haha
halloween is something ill remember it was good.
i miss my family guesss in the end thats all you have left is your family because friends come and go that quick.
i got to say ive had alot of friends thatll never forget just because they made me see life so much more then what it was and as much as we dont talk anymore. such as mercedes and amber and i mean ashli....it was the group that made me a better person and im happy that their lives are good. im happy that amber and merc found someone they love so much and i hope they never lose it just hold on to it forever because when its gone, youll fuckin miss it with everything in you. and ashli your still the greatest person i have yet to meet and probably will ever meet and things shouldnt get in the way of us because in the end nothing can break this friendship up WE ARE ONE.