Black and Blue
God my fucking arm hurts! bastard.
I love wrestling matches, woo!
so i created a music myspace and this girl I met at node works for Pridefest and is currently trying to get me a slot... which shocks the hell out of me! And she's actively persuing this. Not only that, but she e-mailed this girl in this band just asking for a friendly word and maybe some advice to be sent to me... I don't believe this. How rock awesome? I'm all sort of hyper and excited over all of this.... I could kiss the woman, believe you me!
anyway, the music myspace is found at the following web addresss: www.myspace.com/katielynnz
shitty recording, but it'll do for now until i can get a better one.
Life has been complicated lately. I have no fucking idea what's been going through my head lately... I think I just need to sleep alone and chill out and spend a night SOBER (which hasn't happened in a month now) and thinking. God... every night I seem to get more trashed than the last. And it doesn't help that since the gang has been living here, we've basically taken it upon ourselves to become practicing alcoholics. I don't know what it is, but when I wake up, the first thing I go for is a beer. And that's the way it is with all of us.
I've managed to cut way back on my food intake too. Today I only ate 1 slice of pizza when I woke up and Laz, Dom, Beck, and Brick took me with them to webbs, so I ate dinner there. I really need to lose this excess weight before I end up dead. Having a coronary at 22 is not my idea of goodness.
but let me be honest, I HATE looking unappealing. I keep looking in the mirror and cringing every time I see myself. I'm not trying to get attention, I actually think I'm hideous. And yeah, I did mention something about it today because Dom was sitting there calling me "cute" and "beautiful" which really bothers me. Seriously, just 50 pounds. If I can lose that I can do anything.
I love wrestling matches, woo!
so i created a music myspace and this girl I met at node works for Pridefest and is currently trying to get me a slot... which shocks the hell out of me! And she's actively persuing this. Not only that, but she e-mailed this girl in this band just asking for a friendly word and maybe some advice to be sent to me... I don't believe this. How rock awesome? I'm all sort of hyper and excited over all of this.... I could kiss the woman, believe you me!
anyway, the music myspace is found at the following web addresss: www.myspace.com/katielynnz
shitty recording, but it'll do for now until i can get a better one.
Life has been complicated lately. I have no fucking idea what's been going through my head lately... I think I just need to sleep alone and chill out and spend a night SOBER (which hasn't happened in a month now) and thinking. God... every night I seem to get more trashed than the last. And it doesn't help that since the gang has been living here, we've basically taken it upon ourselves to become practicing alcoholics. I don't know what it is, but when I wake up, the first thing I go for is a beer. And that's the way it is with all of us.
I've managed to cut way back on my food intake too. Today I only ate 1 slice of pizza when I woke up and Laz, Dom, Beck, and Brick took me with them to webbs, so I ate dinner there. I really need to lose this excess weight before I end up dead. Having a coronary at 22 is not my idea of goodness.
but let me be honest, I HATE looking unappealing. I keep looking in the mirror and cringing every time I see myself. I'm not trying to get attention, I actually think I'm hideous. And yeah, I did mention something about it today because Dom was sitting there calling me "cute" and "beautiful" which really bothers me. Seriously, just 50 pounds. If I can lose that I can do anything.