Real long well needed update.
Well I have had 3 Surgerys already.
First one was to put a 4 inch screw to hold it together.
Second one was to remove the infection in which I got from the screw.
Third one was to remove the screw and infection that was there.
Forth? I don't know I find out if I have to have another one Monday.
I only have about 50% use of my right arm. Can almost go straight and can go almost to a 90 degree angle and that is it. I can touch my face but I'm in a lot of pain. My Elbow is still infected but this time it is not the tissue. It the the Bone and hurts so bad. When I broke it; it felt like I hit my funny bone and that still is there. And now it feels like a tooth ache in my fore arm about 6 inches closet to the elbow where the screw was. This is not fun and sucks. I am getting turned down by for my lawsuit because the city is not responsible for the sidewalk? Sounds like bull shit to me. Now I don't know what to do about the ongoing infection. The doc. has been wonderful and is helping me get help with all the medical bills but I am starting to believe that the sterile environment wasn't that. Should I sue his insurance. I am stuck in a bind and getting more and more depressed. I hat the thought of suicide and really don't think I could ever harm myself but it is all I can think about. I don't want to think like that but I am 25 years old, Have nothing and it seems as every time I change something for the better the world Kicks my ass and hates me. Unfortunately it all makes suicide look more beautiful.
No I am not going to kill myself. It will not happen. Not now or Never. I am just saying why do I think like this. Why am I stuck in a rut I cannot pull out of.
I always see People prospering and making there life better. All those people don't believe in god or anything for that matter. Should I denounce god. I have felt this way for a while. The more and more I read up on religion I see government Hoax something to make there citizens stay in line. I am not saying we don't need it because we do. We as a race are not strong enough to believe that we are a life form that has been created by physics and all that jazz. We need a belief structure that keeps people from killing, and harming others.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't find a job because I am constantly going to Doctor appointment and Physical Therapy or because I can't do the job because my arm is not functioning right. I don;t know what to do anymore.
Any advice is greatly appreciated except if you are going to talk to me about suicide because that is not going to happen.
First one was to put a 4 inch screw to hold it together.
Second one was to remove the infection in which I got from the screw.
Third one was to remove the screw and infection that was there.
Forth? I don't know I find out if I have to have another one Monday.
I only have about 50% use of my right arm. Can almost go straight and can go almost to a 90 degree angle and that is it. I can touch my face but I'm in a lot of pain. My Elbow is still infected but this time it is not the tissue. It the the Bone and hurts so bad. When I broke it; it felt like I hit my funny bone and that still is there. And now it feels like a tooth ache in my fore arm about 6 inches closet to the elbow where the screw was. This is not fun and sucks. I am getting turned down by for my lawsuit because the city is not responsible for the sidewalk? Sounds like bull shit to me. Now I don't know what to do about the ongoing infection. The doc. has been wonderful and is helping me get help with all the medical bills but I am starting to believe that the sterile environment wasn't that. Should I sue his insurance. I am stuck in a bind and getting more and more depressed. I hat the thought of suicide and really don't think I could ever harm myself but it is all I can think about. I don't want to think like that but I am 25 years old, Have nothing and it seems as every time I change something for the better the world Kicks my ass and hates me. Unfortunately it all makes suicide look more beautiful.
No I am not going to kill myself. It will not happen. Not now or Never. I am just saying why do I think like this. Why am I stuck in a rut I cannot pull out of.
I always see People prospering and making there life better. All those people don't believe in god or anything for that matter. Should I denounce god. I have felt this way for a while. The more and more I read up on religion I see government Hoax something to make there citizens stay in line. I am not saying we don't need it because we do. We as a race are not strong enough to believe that we are a life form that has been created by physics and all that jazz. We need a belief structure that keeps people from killing, and harming others.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't find a job because I am constantly going to Doctor appointment and Physical Therapy or because I can't do the job because my arm is not functioning right. I don;t know what to do anymore.
Any advice is greatly appreciated except if you are going to talk to me about suicide because that is not going to happen.