So *what* if I have a guilty concious?
I can't take it. I always feel like you're pointing the finger at me. Why? No good reason. It feels like everyone's pointing the finger at me. I can't wait to graduate. I can't wait to grow up and move away. UPJ isn't far but it's far enough to get away from the place I'm beginning to hate the most. An hour and a half...&I'm GONE. UPT too. Far enough. I need to start applying, now. I've been feeling constantly ill. Tired, sore, whatever. I can't wait for everything to disappear. I can't wait for the homecoming game. To get all crazy and yell and go wild and get painted up and be amazing. I hate looking back through the past few years and thinking of how it was wasted. Yeah, I said it. A lot of my time was wasted. I should have focused more on school and stuff rather than what everyone thought of me, and fitting in. I'm going to leave everything behind that made me suck. Yeah..I suck. I shouldn't be the way I am..who cares about it. No one is worth going out of my way to change to impress them..if you don't like the way I am, then deal with it or leave me. I hate feeling like my friends hate me. And I feel that now. That's not what friends are for. They're supposed to be supportive & there for you when you need them..and I feel really alone. I know I'm not perfect and I know I'm not everything you've been friends with forever, but honestly. I don't even know where I'm going with this. I just want to disappear, that'd be sweet. I can't wait for June of 07.