and so it seems, that you've grown up and over me, and these silly things i like to dwell on.

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i feel so out of touch with everything.
and i know i'm the one isolating myself.
i don't quite understand it.
everyone has some sort of an outlet, or crutch.
whether it be drugs, drinking, religion, music, etc.
i don't.
i feel like i'm behind the glass observing everything;
so distant.
it seems as though a lot of people only talk to me when it's convenient for them.
i can't be bothered to talk to people if they don't make an effort to talk to me.
i've lost touch with a lot of people i used to be close with.
with friends i used to hang out with all the time.
and with friends who meant the world to me, thought understood me and would never lie to me.
it's not that i'm even depressed or anything.
i just don't feel happy.
i can't explain it.