I'm Back, Only To Be Gone Again
Finally our computer is up and running like new. The internet is much better and faster now. I am so happy to be updating my journal. I am going up to Washington on Wednesday and will be in Spokane on Saturday. My mom is very indecisive and it is funny because she may or may not choose to get married on the 7th of August. I thought I was bad at making up my mind, but sheesh. I have so much planned for myself when I get back home. I don't know if I'll be able to do everything.
I have been working my ass off to get a little ahead. I got a second job and I work both jobs frequently through out the week. It kind of sucks, but I don't have a social life anyways so I'm not wasting any valuable time. I have been thinking alot though and contemplating staying here in Santa Barbara until the beginning of next year. Part of me wants so much to be able to stay here and enjoy life, but I know I can't afford to live here if anything in my current situation changes. It is a little scary for me to think that I could be homeless at anytime if a situation comes up. Lately I have been feeling like I have started to wander off of the path I started paving. I know that I can do whatever I choose, but this all seems so wierd to me. I feel as if I belong nowhere.
I need to make friends so I can escape from my homestead every once and a while. I can't be around Ember 24/7 anymore. I told her that when we go back home she isn't going to see me for 2 weeks. LOL. Well I can't spill anymore of my guts.. It's just gonna have to wait until I get back from my FUCKING VACATION!!!! WOO-HOO!!! ROCK ON!
I have been working my ass off to get a little ahead. I got a second job and I work both jobs frequently through out the week. It kind of sucks, but I don't have a social life anyways so I'm not wasting any valuable time. I have been thinking alot though and contemplating staying here in Santa Barbara until the beginning of next year. Part of me wants so much to be able to stay here and enjoy life, but I know I can't afford to live here if anything in my current situation changes. It is a little scary for me to think that I could be homeless at anytime if a situation comes up. Lately I have been feeling like I have started to wander off of the path I started paving. I know that I can do whatever I choose, but this all seems so wierd to me. I feel as if I belong nowhere.
I need to make friends so I can escape from my homestead every once and a while. I can't be around Ember 24/7 anymore. I told her that when we go back home she isn't going to see me for 2 weeks. LOL. Well I can't spill anymore of my guts.. It's just gonna have to wait until I get back from my FUCKING VACATION!!!! WOO-HOO!!! ROCK ON!