gotta keep moving on
So, its really been awhile. (For me, especially)
So, what's new with me? Well, for one I really am over working this semester. (Both literally over-working myself and compleately fed up with working.) There are a lot of reasons behind this, but I will save them for personal conversations.
Secondly, I have yet to decide where I'm going for school next semester, so I'm leaning towards Temple. There are so many things that just keep going wrong with Wisconsin, that I'm pretty much too impatiant to fix again. Plus, being it so that I, for the first time, do enjoy my life, I don't want to throw it all away and move 15 hours away. Maybe in the future I will regret this decision, but I doubt it. Furthermore, the only real reason I'd go to Wisconsin at this point would be to continue as a forensicator. Buuut. As much as I love forensics (which is a lot) I don't think I can make the decision for my future based on an extracurricular activity. Its time for me to move on. I'm already so restless.
Don't judge me, but I watched True Life: I'm a Staten Island Girl today in Shaundi's room. It was really interesting to parellel my life (yeah get over it) with one of the girls on the show. It was basically, I need to move out of the suburbs to do what I want to do. As much as I love where I'm at, and am afraid to leave, it is time to go.
So. I think that settles it. All I really need to do right now is figure out my rooming situation here and, well, it looks like Philadelphia, unless Wisconsin can give me an answer in the next week or so. I can't keep putting off planning for my future because the US Postal Service is unreliable.
But over all, I had a really amazing weekend. Dating someone not like me, (and very much emotionally stable) is refreshing. What I was unsure of at first, is turning into something that makes me happy.
Last weekend we had our first travelling tournament, where we won, and almost every individual walked away with an award. It was a great first experience; I can't believe how long it had been since I competed.
Again, I can't explain to you how hard that is going to be to give up.
But, life moves on. And so must I. I can feel the wheel of fortune turning already, however, as we approach November. I've been very lucky in the past few months, and we all know it's got to end sometimes. November is my polar month, too. So anyone that believes even the tiniest bit in Astrology understands that this is going to be rough.
But still, I'm not afraid. Afraid of the change, a little bit. But, its as Kelly Clarkson says,
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i won't forget all the ones that I love
i'll take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
Love you guys.
-AK
So, what's new with me? Well, for one I really am over working this semester. (Both literally over-working myself and compleately fed up with working.) There are a lot of reasons behind this, but I will save them for personal conversations.
Secondly, I have yet to decide where I'm going for school next semester, so I'm leaning towards Temple. There are so many things that just keep going wrong with Wisconsin, that I'm pretty much too impatiant to fix again. Plus, being it so that I, for the first time, do enjoy my life, I don't want to throw it all away and move 15 hours away. Maybe in the future I will regret this decision, but I doubt it. Furthermore, the only real reason I'd go to Wisconsin at this point would be to continue as a forensicator. Buuut. As much as I love forensics (which is a lot) I don't think I can make the decision for my future based on an extracurricular activity. Its time for me to move on. I'm already so restless.
Don't judge me, but I watched True Life: I'm a Staten Island Girl today in Shaundi's room. It was really interesting to parellel my life (yeah get over it) with one of the girls on the show. It was basically, I need to move out of the suburbs to do what I want to do. As much as I love where I'm at, and am afraid to leave, it is time to go.
So. I think that settles it. All I really need to do right now is figure out my rooming situation here and, well, it looks like Philadelphia, unless Wisconsin can give me an answer in the next week or so. I can't keep putting off planning for my future because the US Postal Service is unreliable.
But over all, I had a really amazing weekend. Dating someone not like me, (and very much emotionally stable) is refreshing. What I was unsure of at first, is turning into something that makes me happy.
Last weekend we had our first travelling tournament, where we won, and almost every individual walked away with an award. It was a great first experience; I can't believe how long it had been since I competed.
Again, I can't explain to you how hard that is going to be to give up.
But, life moves on. And so must I. I can feel the wheel of fortune turning already, however, as we approach November. I've been very lucky in the past few months, and we all know it's got to end sometimes. November is my polar month, too. So anyone that believes even the tiniest bit in Astrology understands that this is going to be rough.
But still, I'm not afraid. Afraid of the change, a little bit. But, its as Kelly Clarkson says,
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i won't forget all the ones that I love
i'll take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
Love you guys.
-AK