school
I just got a call from my sister. She just got an email from one of her professors saying that her paper was the best argued of any that she had read, and Kim was so completely thrilled. I'm so happy for her. And it made me smile that she would think to call me, out of everyone she could call, to spread her happy news. :)
I'm very nervous about starting school. I want so badly to do well, and to make up for all of my mistakes, and to make everyone proud of me. I want to do something right. I want, when people think of me, for them to consider me a smart, hard-working person who is going to make something of herself.
My Dad says that the people who make it in college are the ones that really want to. The ones that want to do their best, and really respect the fact that hard work is the way to get what you want. If that is so, then I'll blow their minds with my success, because I havn't wanted something this much in such a long time.
I have so far to go, and I'm so far behind, that it feels like I may not be able to do it. That discourages me a little, here and there. But I don't want to let it discourage me from doing whatever is in my power to be what I know I can be. I have to shove my insecurities aside, acknowledge that it is going to be a lot of hard work and difficult times for me, and hold onto the will to keep trying, no matter what.