My Plans for the Next Couple Months
The last couple weeks have been a whirlwind of craziness for me.
Dalisa, Dustin and I moved into the two-bedroom apartment starting on the 28th of February, and we didn't finish everything until like the 3rd of March. Actually, most of my stuff, except for my bed, was moved on the 28th, by me. But it took so long because Dustin and Dalisa had so much stuff, and a lot of it wasn't even packed. Then we had to clean the old apartment so we could minimize the cost of cleaning the apartments would charge us. When we were done moving the stuff to the new apartment, there were boxes and crates of stuff stacked up everywhere in the living room, and it was still there a couple days later as I was leaving for Reno on the 7th.
Which brings me to my next point: I've been in Reno since March 7th, and Shaun and I have decided together that I will move back here for a little while (maybe six months) until he can move up to Seattle to be with me, so we can save some money. We talked about it, and realized that by us going back and forth is not helping us financially or emotionally. So here I am to stay. It's funny how what was originally a weekend visit, turned into us never living apart again. During the original couple days, I went dress shopping with one of his friends, we went out to dinner with his Mother and her boyfriend, and we just generally hung out. It was really nice. We had planned for a long time that while I was here, we would get our marriage license so it would be one less thing to do closer to the actual wedding day... but for a few days before and when I got here, we had talked about running away and eloping. Well, I had made a snap decision on that Monday (March 9th) that I told Shaun, "I'm not going to Marry you today, but I will stay for a little while longer." So I changed my airline ticket to leave on March 18th (Instead of the 10th, like originally planned), and we enjoyed the extra time together and made plans for my return. We got our marriage license and went out to celebrate, and over those days, settled into a routine of being together.
We had originally planned that I would go home on the 18th, take care of some things I needed to do (get a lock for my door, give Dalisa a check for a couple months rent, get Chinchilla food, etc) and come back in two weeks' time, tops. It didn't work out that way though. We didn't want to be away from each other, for even that short amount of time, so we talked about driving up to get my stuff and coming right back. (Which was also talked about before the final decision was made that I would leave on the 18th, but we decided against it for whatever reason.) Our minds, or my mind, was still not made up as we were going to the airport.(Which was really late in the game, considering. We got there like 20 minutes before my flight was supposed to board.) When we got to the airport, my flight was approximately an hour late, which gave us some more time to spend together before I needed to go through security to go board. So we were sitting there in the food court right before the security entrance discussing the options of me getting on the plane vs. us driving up together, weighing the pros and cons of each, having essentially a point/counterpoint moment. (Him arguing the side of us driving up to Seattle.) So after a few minutes of talking, I made another snap decision. I broke our period of reflective silence by looking over at him and saying "LET'S GO." I know Shaun was shocked, I could see it on his face, but I could also see that he was really happy. He said, "Come here, give me a kiss." So I leaned over and kissed him really quick, but then I bolted up and was like "Quickly, before I change my mind, Let's Go!"
So we left the airport, I walked out on my plane ticket and everything else, to be with Shaun. Which if you know me, you know that I am NOT an impulsive person, and I do not make decisions lightly. But Shaun brings that kind of reaction out in me. I called Dalisa and told her she didn't need to pick me up at the airport that night, and Shaun and I went to get something to eat and then went to get a lock for my door from one of the hardware stores here (one less thing to do there, since we'll have very limited time in Seattle). We'll be driving up to Seattle this coming Monday, on his day off, and then driving back here om Tuesday. It's a long drive, about 15 hours each way, but Shaun is willing to do it for me, because he really wants me here with him that badly. And I want to be here with him that badly. So we're going to take that drive together. It will give us a good chance to see how we work together in a situation like that, though I don't think it will be any issue at all. Shaun and I have such an amazing dynamic together that even in otherwise stressful situations (stressful to other people, maybe), we have a blast. We plan on getting some Mad Libs books and burning some CDs to listen to, and any other form of inexpensive "road trip" entertainment we can think of, as well.That's one of many things I love about our relationship.
So I'm here in Reno, and will be here until August or September when he and I go back to Seattle together. I am going to be looking for a job (even more than I already have been) pretty hard when we get back. Hopefully, I'll find something within a couple weeks, even if it's only part time or pays crap. Anything helps when you're trying to save up for a goal. But more importantly, I will be here, adjusting to living with someone again. This will be the third time I've lived with someone, but unlike the other two times, this time, there isn't a single part of me that worries that it will be awful, that something will come up and drive one or both of us crazy and cause problems. With Shaun, I only feel contentedness. Even though we have a studio apartment, Shaun and I get along really well and never feel like we don't have enough space. Which says a lot about both of us, since we are both of the "I need space" (figuratively and literally) variety. I guess that's an advantage of finding the person you were truly meant to be with. Everything just falls into place naturally. And amazingly, even as "just friends", Shaun and I had that kind of closeness and understanding that meant things will work fine. I am still amazed, every day, and feel so lucky, every day, that I have found something this meaningful and wonderful.
Though Shaun and I are not officially Married yet, I will also be adjusting to being a wife. I am really excited about this, and it actually comes easily for me, which is a little surprising. I've always been this person that believed I would probably never marry for various reasons. "It's just a piece of paper, it doesn't mean more than that"; Sometimes, in my more depressive states, I would think that I wouldn't meet someone who would want to be with ME; But mostly, I always thought I would never meet someone that I would want to be with forever, that I would want to call my husband. I thought I'd never meet someone worth a damn, to put it bluntly. Shaun felt the same way before, too. We kind of changed each others perspective about love and marriage, because we both, two jaded souls living in a negative world, found the positive and realized what truly loving someone could be. So now, wanting to be with him, wanting to be a wife in EVERY WAY, comes so naturally to me. Yesterday, I even started a sentence with "MY husband and I.." when I called WalMart's Customer Service desk. And from what Shaun tells me, he has those moments, too, where he actually has to stop and force himself to say "My Fiancee". I think that is so sweet, I really do. So Shaun and I are adjusting to being husband and wife, taking care of each others needs; physical, emotional, and mental. And to be honest, there really is no adjusting at all. Like I said, it comes so naturally to the both of us.
I don't mean this to be some sort of gushy love-fest, but I really can't help it if it comes across that way. I am so excited to have found this, and so blessed to have someone I can love so freely who loves me just the same. I never thought I would have such a positive, secure feeling about anything, or that I could be so happy with another person. I have truly found THE ONE.
I love you, Shaun Marcoccia!
(PS: He could totally beat me at Arm Wrestling!)
Dalisa, Dustin and I moved into the two-bedroom apartment starting on the 28th of February, and we didn't finish everything until like the 3rd of March. Actually, most of my stuff, except for my bed, was moved on the 28th, by me. But it took so long because Dustin and Dalisa had so much stuff, and a lot of it wasn't even packed. Then we had to clean the old apartment so we could minimize the cost of cleaning the apartments would charge us. When we were done moving the stuff to the new apartment, there were boxes and crates of stuff stacked up everywhere in the living room, and it was still there a couple days later as I was leaving for Reno on the 7th.
Which brings me to my next point: I've been in Reno since March 7th, and Shaun and I have decided together that I will move back here for a little while (maybe six months) until he can move up to Seattle to be with me, so we can save some money. We talked about it, and realized that by us going back and forth is not helping us financially or emotionally. So here I am to stay. It's funny how what was originally a weekend visit, turned into us never living apart again. During the original couple days, I went dress shopping with one of his friends, we went out to dinner with his Mother and her boyfriend, and we just generally hung out. It was really nice. We had planned for a long time that while I was here, we would get our marriage license so it would be one less thing to do closer to the actual wedding day... but for a few days before and when I got here, we had talked about running away and eloping. Well, I had made a snap decision on that Monday (March 9th) that I told Shaun, "I'm not going to Marry you today, but I will stay for a little while longer." So I changed my airline ticket to leave on March 18th (Instead of the 10th, like originally planned), and we enjoyed the extra time together and made plans for my return. We got our marriage license and went out to celebrate, and over those days, settled into a routine of being together.
We had originally planned that I would go home on the 18th, take care of some things I needed to do (get a lock for my door, give Dalisa a check for a couple months rent, get Chinchilla food, etc) and come back in two weeks' time, tops. It didn't work out that way though. We didn't want to be away from each other, for even that short amount of time, so we talked about driving up to get my stuff and coming right back. (Which was also talked about before the final decision was made that I would leave on the 18th, but we decided against it for whatever reason.) Our minds, or my mind, was still not made up as we were going to the airport.(Which was really late in the game, considering. We got there like 20 minutes before my flight was supposed to board.) When we got to the airport, my flight was approximately an hour late, which gave us some more time to spend together before I needed to go through security to go board. So we were sitting there in the food court right before the security entrance discussing the options of me getting on the plane vs. us driving up together, weighing the pros and cons of each, having essentially a point/counterpoint moment. (Him arguing the side of us driving up to Seattle.) So after a few minutes of talking, I made another snap decision. I broke our period of reflective silence by looking over at him and saying "LET'S GO." I know Shaun was shocked, I could see it on his face, but I could also see that he was really happy. He said, "Come here, give me a kiss." So I leaned over and kissed him really quick, but then I bolted up and was like "Quickly, before I change my mind, Let's Go!"
So we left the airport, I walked out on my plane ticket and everything else, to be with Shaun. Which if you know me, you know that I am NOT an impulsive person, and I do not make decisions lightly. But Shaun brings that kind of reaction out in me. I called Dalisa and told her she didn't need to pick me up at the airport that night, and Shaun and I went to get something to eat and then went to get a lock for my door from one of the hardware stores here (one less thing to do there, since we'll have very limited time in Seattle). We'll be driving up to Seattle this coming Monday, on his day off, and then driving back here om Tuesday. It's a long drive, about 15 hours each way, but Shaun is willing to do it for me, because he really wants me here with him that badly. And I want to be here with him that badly. So we're going to take that drive together. It will give us a good chance to see how we work together in a situation like that, though I don't think it will be any issue at all. Shaun and I have such an amazing dynamic together that even in otherwise stressful situations (stressful to other people, maybe), we have a blast. We plan on getting some Mad Libs books and burning some CDs to listen to, and any other form of inexpensive "road trip" entertainment we can think of, as well.That's one of many things I love about our relationship.
So I'm here in Reno, and will be here until August or September when he and I go back to Seattle together. I am going to be looking for a job (even more than I already have been) pretty hard when we get back. Hopefully, I'll find something within a couple weeks, even if it's only part time or pays crap. Anything helps when you're trying to save up for a goal. But more importantly, I will be here, adjusting to living with someone again. This will be the third time I've lived with someone, but unlike the other two times, this time, there isn't a single part of me that worries that it will be awful, that something will come up and drive one or both of us crazy and cause problems. With Shaun, I only feel contentedness. Even though we have a studio apartment, Shaun and I get along really well and never feel like we don't have enough space. Which says a lot about both of us, since we are both of the "I need space" (figuratively and literally) variety. I guess that's an advantage of finding the person you were truly meant to be with. Everything just falls into place naturally. And amazingly, even as "just friends", Shaun and I had that kind of closeness and understanding that meant things will work fine. I am still amazed, every day, and feel so lucky, every day, that I have found something this meaningful and wonderful.
Though Shaun and I are not officially Married yet, I will also be adjusting to being a wife. I am really excited about this, and it actually comes easily for me, which is a little surprising. I've always been this person that believed I would probably never marry for various reasons. "It's just a piece of paper, it doesn't mean more than that"; Sometimes, in my more depressive states, I would think that I wouldn't meet someone who would want to be with ME; But mostly, I always thought I would never meet someone that I would want to be with forever, that I would want to call my husband. I thought I'd never meet someone worth a damn, to put it bluntly. Shaun felt the same way before, too. We kind of changed each others perspective about love and marriage, because we both, two jaded souls living in a negative world, found the positive and realized what truly loving someone could be. So now, wanting to be with him, wanting to be a wife in EVERY WAY, comes so naturally to me. Yesterday, I even started a sentence with "MY husband and I.." when I called WalMart's Customer Service desk. And from what Shaun tells me, he has those moments, too, where he actually has to stop and force himself to say "My Fiancee". I think that is so sweet, I really do. So Shaun and I are adjusting to being husband and wife, taking care of each others needs; physical, emotional, and mental. And to be honest, there really is no adjusting at all. Like I said, it comes so naturally to the both of us.
I don't mean this to be some sort of gushy love-fest, but I really can't help it if it comes across that way. I am so excited to have found this, and so blessed to have someone I can love so freely who loves me just the same. I never thought I would have such a positive, secure feeling about anything, or that I could be so happy with another person. I have truly found THE ONE.
I love you, Shaun Marcoccia!
(PS: He could totally beat me at Arm Wrestling!)