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i dont hate who ive become, because i am better now than i ever was, i am stronger, louder, more at ease with who i am. i know i will continue to grow, and to move forward. and i am wiser still. i have finally left my past behind me, there are so many colors in the lights i see now, whats ahead of me can only be good, and better, than anything i have behind me. but thats why its behind me now isnt it? im running but not away from anything, im running towards a future that will bring me the things i desire most. i am learning my heart is beating ever stronger ever louder, i hear its true desires, and though still seeking, always learning, its becoming much more clear to me who i really am and what i really want from life. my path is slowly becoming clearer, maybe its because im growing up, maybe its because im merely still here with my eyes wide open to what i can gain from the things this world must teach me. my university is this. iv learned more from living than i ever did a book, though not discounting the value of such things. its strange to me, how easy it has come to me. yet the difficulty is confusing it is a strange dycotomy of heart. i am in love, i am in peace, i am in truth, and i am learning, and maybe thats how i know i am in a good place. you will only ever get what you settle for, and i have decided to stop settling for any reason. my happiness derives from within and those things which burn passionately there. the rest are ashes, and they are ashes for a reason. i have been blinded by my own smoke. fallen to my own beat, taken by my own riddle, but i am not broken, i am not undone, i am not lost, i am not the fool, i am wiser still, yes yes i am wiser still...