30 Days of Truth: Day 15
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Day 15 > Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you tried living without it.
There are many people that I couldn’t possibly live without… My family, my friends, my husband… Or my pets, really. I haven’t tried living without any of them, but I know for a fact that I just couldn’t bear to be without any of them…
But that’s a given, really. I suppose the one thing that I truly can’t live without because I did indeed try to give it up would be web design/blogging.
I got into it when I was in my mid-teens. Back when Geocities and Freeweb were big (remember those?)… I remember being “hosted” at a handful of domains, but really wanted something of my own. For my 18th birthday, my father bought me Gracewithin.org. I was in love. That domain was my home for years and years. I ended up giving it up after my relationship ended with my ex-fiance.
I decided to go “incognito” for a while. Being hosted under my friend’s sites under an alias. After a while I decided that I just wasn’t feeling it anymore and just gave up blogging all together. I tried writing in a paper journal, but for some reason it just wasn’t the same. Even though I didn’t get the feedback I used to get at Gracewithin, I still craved the knowledge that someone was reading. It was encouraging to me, to know that people felt the same way I did, or were going through similar situations.
And so went the cycle of buying a domain, blogging for a bit and then closing it down. My life has gotten far more rich than it used to be, and so I find less and less inspiration and motivation to blog… But for some reason I can’t ever seem to let go entirely. The web design fire inside me has died - and has been replaced with a desire to photograph things instead - but the need to write and share myself with others will always be there.
Which is why Skyspun is still around.