30 Days of Truth: Day 6
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Day 6 > Something you hope you’ll never have to do.
This is a tough one. I mean, there are so many things that people hope they’ll never have to do. Lose a loved one. Lose a baby. Take someone off life support. I suppose most of what I fear has to do with loss. But what is worthy of writing a post about?
I guess I could go with a more practical answer. Something that I suppose technically could happen. I hope I’ll never have to get a divorce.
I married Simon three years ago this past December. We had met online about four years prior to that while I was still with my ex-boyfriend. We became very close, and in the summer of 2007 Simon came to visit me from his home country: New Zealand. The plan was to stay with me for a few months and see what happened. What happened was that we had decided we wanted to get married. Six months after we met face to face, we did just that.
This is not to say that I am unhappy in my marriage. Quite the contrary, really. I had been in two previous relationships where my significant other had pretty much told me they wanted to spend the rest of their life with me. I was flattered, and the thought of having someone as my husband made me giddy… But not with them. It just didn’t seem right at the time. With Simon, it didn’t take long at all before I just knew he was The One.
But, I come from a “broken” home. My parents split when I was 13 years old after 16 years of marriage. It was a very rough, awful time for the entire family, but ultimately they both found someone else and re-married. And now they are both undoubtedly happy with their new lives. They weren’t meant to be together, and I realize that. Which I suppose makes me aware that just because you marry someone doesn’t necessarily mean you should be with them forever.
I hope I never have to go through that realization, though. Right now I can honestly say that I can see spending the rest of my life with Simon. Having children with him, growing old with him. The thought of getting to a point where one of us just doesn’t want to be with the other hurts my heart. I never want to get to that point.