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so life is actually good for once. i think i am going to be happy. i have a new plan and my plan envolves no one from here. i've started putting my shit together. i've been talking with the people at the dmv. should be getting my license back soon. as for the car thing, i had a line on a car but seeing as i won't be here much longer i don't think i'll need one. the bus in portland is great. i have a few leads on jobs out there. it's actually kinda suprising how many people don't want me to go. here i was thinking no one gave a shit. oh well, what was i sopposed to think, people only defend me anonomously (sorry, still not good at spelling). everyone keeps coming up to me and asking me what it would take for me to stay. nothing. i've set my mind to it. going to buy my ticket here in a few minutes. but to all of those who care, i will miss you. i haven't exactly figured out how to tell aaron that i am leaving. so please those of you who know him, let me tell him myself. thank you. i might be seeing him at where else tomorrow night. maybe i can tell him then. i am going to miss him alot. it's good to know that some people are wrong and not everyone wants me for just sex. people do like me for me. it's kinda hard to like me for the sex when you've never done it with them. hopefully this move will help me be happy for the first time in quite a few years. i almost remember what iit feels like. ok well i should probably go. no one really wants to hear what i have to say anyway.
i love you guys.
i love you guys.