happy and depressed..
well im very happy about today.. it is the 7th of December.. which means that me and Aaron have been together for 4 months!.. eee! that makes me happy.. but im also very depressed because i havent really seen much of Aaron.. the last time that we acually spent a lot of time toghether was last Thursday.. its almost been a week.. i mean i know this is something that people would tell me im stupid for getting depressed about it.. but they dont understand that he was the person that i spent all my time with.. and we havent even really talked on the phone for a long conversation since forever it seems like.. but i dont know.. maybe things have changed.. and everything.. but i wrote him a note today while i was in ISS.. and i told him about what i did on friday.. since i knew i wouldnt be able to tell him in person since we havent really been hanging out much.. and im so glad that he forgave me.. and i know it was stupid.. and i told him i wouldnt do it again.. and i am going to do anything i can to not do it again..