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You know there is no getting used to this feeling...
Let's see...
I want to cry right now....cry of happiness? sadness? aloneness?
Right now I'm scared...just scared that something will happen...That I might miss out on the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I need to learn how to relax and not worry. Not worry that anything is going to happen...and not worry that I won't get hurt, and not worry about being something I'm not.
Graduation is tomorrow and I feel so young. I've come all the way, and I feel like it's for nothing. I have no idea who is going to pay for my college...I think my dad?
But anyways, I wasn't talking about that. There are so many things I want to spill out..but I am keeping this one for myself. The little things I am going to keep to myself. I have become a secretive person, in a sense, I like it. I don't think everyone needs to know about me, and some other things.
I want to cry and smile at the same time. What is this!? I can just look in..."awe"? I don't know what the word is...sometimes this, sometimes that. I don't want it to be the same thing...I want this to be different! (It is! It is!)
I just can't get used to this...I'm so scared though...tomorrow will be good. Tomorrow will be great....EXCEPT when I have to leave to go to the senior par-tay. I have no inspiration to go now...I just wanna...
Let's see...
I want to cry right now....cry of happiness? sadness? aloneness?
Right now I'm scared...just scared that something will happen...That I might miss out on the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I need to learn how to relax and not worry. Not worry that anything is going to happen...and not worry that I won't get hurt, and not worry about being something I'm not.
Graduation is tomorrow and I feel so young. I've come all the way, and I feel like it's for nothing. I have no idea who is going to pay for my college...I think my dad?
But anyways, I wasn't talking about that. There are so many things I want to spill out..but I am keeping this one for myself. The little things I am going to keep to myself. I have become a secretive person, in a sense, I like it. I don't think everyone needs to know about me, and some other things.
I want to cry and smile at the same time. What is this!? I can just look in..."awe"? I don't know what the word is...sometimes this, sometimes that. I don't want it to be the same thing...I want this to be different! (It is! It is!)
I just can't get used to this...I'm so scared though...tomorrow will be good. Tomorrow will be great....EXCEPT when I have to leave to go to the senior par-tay. I have no inspiration to go now...I just wanna...