note to self i miss you terriblyy.
so i'm home sick. what the hell. i hate it. i can't eat cause i can't swallow... not only does it hurt but it chokes me. yeah.. whatever. my head is still killing me and all i've been doing is taking medicine.. to much antihistamine... always sleeping.
i got my new cell phone. i love it. it's a flippy.. i thought i'd never decide to get one of them. it's a color screen and i downloaded "addicted" as my ring tone. i'm all set<3
5 more days<3
9 more days
yeah.. christmas is basically here... yay i guess. not to ecstatic for it this year.. or any year of that matter... many reasons why. i don't wanna say publicly.
i miss the summer.. alot...
i need another nap... here's 2 surveys i did from boredom...
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: No
(4) Want to be?: No
(5) Your birth day: December 21
(6) Age you act: Depends
(7) Age you wish you were: 21
(8) Your height: 5'
(9) The color of your eyes: They change… Blue/Green/Grey
(10) Happy with it?: Sure
(11) The color of your hair: Blonde
(12) Happy with it?: Yea
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
(14) Your living arrangement?: I live with my grandparents, older brother and his girlfriend
(27) Your family: Is big… A total Romeo and Juliet experience… kinda
(29) What's your job: Didn’t start yet--
(30) Piercings?: Two 1/2
(31) Tattoos?: Give me 5 days
(32) Obsessions?: Music/Simple Plan/Pierre, my cell phone, idk
(35) Do you speak another language? Oui, Francais
(36) Have a favorite quote? “dude…” etc
(37) Do you have a webpage?: no
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: I think so
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeah
(40) Do you have any secrets?: Not anymore
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Yes
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: I don't care for it
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: I’m lazy.. Never do anything myself almost.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: Looks. Personality.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Because you were forced to watch...
(46) What's your biggest fear?: gaining weight, being alone, now death’s apart of it, and losing someone
(47) Can you sing: So I’m told
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No
(49) Are you a loner?: No
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably not
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Yeah
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yes, everything
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: I don’t know
(55) Have you got a ?: I always do
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? I could always put a smile on?
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: Just one thing? Damn it…
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Love
(59) How do you vent?: I cry and break things
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: No not at all
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: It could’ve been better
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Never give up on anything. You’re putting up with it for a reason
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: lol
(65) And least?: everything
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: nope
(67) Are you confident?: nah
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: none.. I’m unique
(69) Do people know how you feel?: empathy? Yeah I got that
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: No
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: No
(72) Do drugs?: No
(73) Read the newspaper?: No
(74) Pray?: Sometimes
(75) Go to church? Not lately
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yea, their assholes from twp.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Mhm
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Yes
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: Yes
(80) Drive?: Yea
(81) Like to drive fast?: Yes
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: Once
(83) Hurt yourself?: Yes
(84) Been out of the country?: No… but I will be.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: Not sure
(86) Burped?: Yea
(87) Been unfaithful?: I hate that
(88) Been in love?: Yes
(89) Done drugs?: No
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Yeah
(92) Had a surgery?: No
(93) Ran away from home?: Yes
(94) Played strip poker: No
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Nope
(97) Been picked on?: Of course..
(98) Been on stage?: Yes
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: Um, no.
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yeah ugh
(101) Thought about suicide?: Yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Yea
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 24 hours or so..
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Yeah
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Yea
(107) Slept all day?: Yeah I can do that shitt
(108) Killed someone?: No
(109) Made out with a stranger?: No
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: No
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: Yes
(112) Kissed the same sex?: I pecked the same sexxx
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? No
(114) Been betrayed?: Yea
(115) Had a dream that came true?: Yes
(116) Broken the law?: Yes
(117) Met a famous person?: Yes!! =)
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yes
(146) Stolen anything?: Yes
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: No
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Haha
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes
(150) Considered religious vocation?: No
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: No
(152) Bungee jumped?: No, But I want to.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yeah
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: DC, converse
(155) Brand of clothing?: Pac Sun, Express
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Lilu, Tommy Hilfiger, Eddie Bauer, Clinque
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: Something I think is cute for that day
(159) Wear hats?: yea. I love hats.
(161) Wear make-up?: Have to
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Pac Sun, Express
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: Socks
(164) Are you trendy?: Am I trendy?
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: Sometimes
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Yes
(167) Miracles?: Yes
(168) Astrology?: Yes
(169) Magic?: Yes
(170) God?: Yes
(171) Satan?: Yes
(172) Santa?: Mhmm
(173) Ghosts?: Yes
(174) Luck?: Yes
(175) Love at first sight?: No
(176) Yin and Yang?: Yes
(177) Witches?: Yes
(178) Easter bunny?: No
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No
(181) Do you wish on stars?: All the time
LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: Yes and no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: Yes
(184) Still love him/her?: Yes
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: No
(186) What do you find romantic?: I don’t know
(187) Turn-on?:
(188) Turn-off?:
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: No
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Tortured....
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: knowing someone
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: I don’t care
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: No
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Some, not alot
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: I don’t remember
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: I don’t know
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? My new cell phone.. 2 days ago<3
(208) Are you in love?: Yes
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: I hate that word
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: Am I supposed to do something? I’d let the kid stand there
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: Christian
(212) You wanted to kill?: Mark
(213) That you laughed at?: Myself
(214) That laughed at you?: Everybody
(215) That turned you on?: Eric
(216) You went shopping with?: Ma
(217) That broke your heart?: Christian
(218) To disappoint you?: My dad
(219) To ask you out?: Eric
(220) To make you cry?: Myself
(221) To brighten up your day?: Lauren
(222) That you thought about?: Lauren cause I just typed her name
(223) You saw a movie with? Ma
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Eric
(225) You talked to through IM?: Chris, Ajay, Kristen
(226) You saw?: Ma
(227) You lost?: Christian
(229) You thought was completely insane?: Me
(230) You wanted to be?: Jessica Simpson or a real life Barbie
(231) You told off?: Aisha
(232) You trusted?: Everyone
(233) You turned down?:
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: Last night
(235) Laughed?: Yesterday (I’m sick)
(236) Cried?: Yesterday
(237) Bought something?: 2 days ago
(238) Danced?: In my room.
(239) Were sarcastic?: Last night
(240) hugged someone?: Last night
(241) Talked to an ex?: Last night
(242) Watched your fave movie?: Last night
(243) Had a nightmare?: forever ago
(245) Talked on the phone?: 6 in the morning
(246) Listened to the radio?: Yesterday
(247) Watched TV?: I avoid that
(248) Went out?: 2 days ago
(249) Helped someone?: Yesterday
(250) Were mean?: Yesterday
(251) Sang?: Today
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: 2 months ago
(253) Said "I love you"?: This morning
(254) Missed someone?: Right now
(255) Fought with a family member?: before I got sick
(256) Fought with a friend?: we don’t fight.. We talk upsettingly but.. Not for a while now
(257) Had a serious conversation?: last night
(258) Got drunk?: lol
[x] whats your name? Brielle Nicole St.Clair
[x] how old? Sweet sixteen
[x] siblings? Two brothers - Adam (oldest), Kevin (a little kid I call my own), and a step sister Sabrina
[x] their ages: 18, 4, 10
[x] female Or male: female
[x] birthday: December 21
[x] natiOnality: French, Japanese and German
[x] Birthplace: Voorhees, Nj
[x] Current [[currently in]]: Washington Township High School
[x] Eye Color: Blue/Green/Grey
[x] Hair Color: Blondee
[x] Righty or Lefty: Righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: Sag
[x] Innie or Outtie: innie
[[-----------------DESCRIBE------------------]]
[x] The shoes you wore today: None today.. Just socks.. Home sick
[x] your eyes: bright and blue filled with happiness- haha
[x] Your fears: gaining weight, losing people, death
[[-----------------WHAT IS------------------]]
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: dude, haha, lol
[x] Your thoughts when you first wake up: school
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes
[x] Your best physical feature: I don’t know
[x] Your bedtime: whenever i want
[x] Your most missed memory: The nights with the buttercutters
[[-----------------YOU PREFER------------------]]
[x] Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: both
[[-----------------DO YOU------------------]]
[x] Smoke: no
[x] Cuss: no not a fucking bit
[x] Take a shower everyday: yes
[x] Have a crush(es): more than a crush
[x] Who are they: he knows
[x] Do you think you've been in love?: yes
[x] Want to go to college: yes
[x] Want to get married: yes
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: no
[x] Believe in yourself: haha, funny
[x] Get motion sickness: no
[x] Think you're attractive: no
[x] Think you're a health freak: not.. Really…
[x] Get along with your parents: yea
[x] Like thunderstorms: yes
[x] Play an instrument: flute, piano, I try to play the acoustic
[[------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------]]
[x] Go to the mall: yes.. yesterday
[x] Eaten sushi: No but I need too.. Pierre’s favorite
[x] Been on stage: yes
[x] Been dumped: yes
[x] Gone skating: yes
[x] Made homemade cookies: yup yup
[x] Been in love: yes
[x] Dyed your hair: no
[x] Stolen anything: yes
[[-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------]]
[x] Flown on a plane: yup
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yea
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: haha yeahh
[x] Cut your hair: yes
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: no
[x] Played a game that required removal of clothing?: nope
[x] Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: lol
[x] Been caught "doing something": no
[x] Been called a tease: yea… all guys say that
[x] Gotten beaten up ?: no
[[-----------------------OPPOSITE SEX--------------------------]]
[x] notice first? eyes
[x] have a BF/GF? yes
[x] wut u into??
[x] any specific kind of guy/ghurl you into? Someone who loves me
[x] feelin anyone? yes
[x] been rejected? all the time
[x] ever rejected sumone? yes
[x] broken someones heart? yes
[x] ever been heart broken? yes
[x] if so how many times?
[x] how many ppl of da opposite sex is in your buddy list on AIM right now? 45/134
[x] been kissed recently?? yes
[x] from who? eric
[x] Best eye color: blue
[x] Best hair color: light
[x] Best height: tall
[[-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------]]
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: no illegal shit
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 12
[x] Number of CDs that I own: a whole store
[x] Number of piercings: 2 1/2
[x] Number of tattoos: technically 2 in 5 days
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: I don’t remember
[x] Number of scars on my body: enough
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: plenty
[[----------------FAVORITES------------------]]
[x] Shampoo: Dove
[x] Fav Color(s): almost all
[x] Day/Night: Night
[x] Summer/Winter: both
[x] Lace or Satin: satin
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: Mickey
[x] Fave Food: rice
[x] Fave Movies: Coyote Ugly, more
[x] Fave sport: soccer, football. lacrosse
[[------------------RIGHT NOW------------------]]
[x] Wearing: rotc sweatshirt/sweatpants, sockers
[x] Drinking: nothing
[x] Thinking about: how life’s a dick
[x] Listening to: MCS - Thrown Down
[[---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------]]
[x] Cried: yes
[x] Worn jeans: yesterday
[x] Met someone new online: my friends from myspace
[x] Done laundry: yes
[x] Drove a car: not in 24 hrs
[x] Talked on the phone: yes
[[-------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------ ]]
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: yes
[x] Do you like anyone?: no, love
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: We all act alike
[x] Who have you known the longest of your closest friends?: Lauren, Kristen, Steph, Amanda, Crystal, Josh
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my older brother Adam
[x] Who do you hang around the most?: Lauren, Kristen, Steph, Amanda, Crystal, Josh, Eric, Stefan, Pat, Pothead, Joey, Ashley, more
[x] When have you cried the most: let’s not talk about it
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: loving someone and being loved back
[x] Worst Feeling?: losing someone you love either in relationship or death
[[--------------------OTHERS--------------------]]
[x] ever fallen for a friend? yes
[x] ever dated someone out of your school? yea
[x] whats your fav. music video?: addicted - simple plan
[x] you are___? sick
[x] you know anyone that is feeling you right now?? yea
[[----------------RANDOMNESS-------------------]]
[x] i love to____with people? Be
[x] what are the last 4 digits of yur phone #? House- 5592 Cell- 4421
[x] what was the last thing you ate? nadda
[x] the last person u talked on the phone with? Eric
[x] favorite drink? Don’t really have one
[x] the last movie that you saw? Christmas story
[x] hugs or kisses? both
[x] what book are u readin? I’m done
[x] the loudest person you know: lol I think me and crystal are
[x] car: Toyota Celica
[x] best friends: Lauren, Kristen, Steph, Amanda, Crystal, Josh, Eric, Stefan, Pat, Matt, Joe