and i'm not proud, that nothing will seem easy about me.
this entry might seem very redundant, considering i basically wrote about all this yesterday in the last entry, but i can't focus or concentrate on anything because all i can think about is this past thursday. i want to go back to it more than anything, and just soak it all in again. i appreciated every second of it while i was there but i just can't let it go. the talks we had...they really made me feel complete. i think we had finally reached some common ground, and though we haven't hung out since then, i hope that things will have changed, and we will have become even closer than before. because like we said, it really might have been fate that we met. lindsey and stacey pointed this out to me, that we were meant to meet and become friends, but i hope it wasn't just the ecstasy talking. because i want it to be true more than anything. i mean, there we were, surrounded by all those people, those lights, that great music, and we were sitting down in a dark corner, holding each other's hands, making plans to continue to live together next year. i don't know, it just all meant a lot to me, and i will never forget december 11, 2008.