no subject in particular.
it's been so long.
i feel like a lot has changed since, but nothing really has, except for the fact that school has started and i have been living at my new apartment. it's nice here, but it has its ups and downs. one upside is being able to smoke a cigarette where ever i am... in the living room watching television, in my bedroom doing homework, in the kitchen cooking a meal (although i don't particularly think that's healthy) or even in the bathroom on the toilet. however, the downside to this is that i smoke even more often now, which is a huge financial burden on myself. it's also nice because i get to just constantly hang out with friends and party whenever we want, but that also means i don't get to have the room to myself that often, let alone the entire place, but you always have to take the good with the bad.
school isn't bad, i don't mind my classes too much. i have a lot of free time on my hands though, and that isn't always a good thing because on days that i only have one class (and that's three out of the five days) i just go right home and don't do anything. i have a lot of assignments but they're never due the next day, so i of course, have now turned into a huge procrastinator. something i never used to be. and the other bad thing about this is that i don't even need to necessarily be doing school work, but i could be doing other things like looking for a job or getting involved in workshops or internship opportunities or something. it's just bad 'cause i know i should be doing all this shit yet i don't WANT to. they're things you just gotta do when you're on your own, and no one should even be pushing you to get your shit straight anymore at this time, but i just don't have the motivation anymore.
weeks go by fast though, and weekends are always something to look forward to. i mostly stay here but there's always something to do, people to invite over, parties to attend. and i get to see bryan, for the entire duration of the weekend. i need to start going to my sister's in allston more often, or downtown or something...too bad boston is too expensive for me right now.
i've been thinking though, and maybe it's time i reward myself with a little something, nothing too big. it's been a while and i want to experience something wonderful, just for a short period.
i want to go out somewhere. i want to go out to dinner in boston, go to a show, walk around before it gets too cold to breathe. i haven't actually just sat outside and watched the sun set in a while, and i used to do that quite a lot, especially towards the end of summer. i would like to even just watch the sun rise every once in a while, but that's definitely out of the question for my lazy ass.
i need to go do research.
my roommate makes me feel really stupid and inadequate as a human being.
i feel like a lot has changed since, but nothing really has, except for the fact that school has started and i have been living at my new apartment. it's nice here, but it has its ups and downs. one upside is being able to smoke a cigarette where ever i am... in the living room watching television, in my bedroom doing homework, in the kitchen cooking a meal (although i don't particularly think that's healthy) or even in the bathroom on the toilet. however, the downside to this is that i smoke even more often now, which is a huge financial burden on myself. it's also nice because i get to just constantly hang out with friends and party whenever we want, but that also means i don't get to have the room to myself that often, let alone the entire place, but you always have to take the good with the bad.
school isn't bad, i don't mind my classes too much. i have a lot of free time on my hands though, and that isn't always a good thing because on days that i only have one class (and that's three out of the five days) i just go right home and don't do anything. i have a lot of assignments but they're never due the next day, so i of course, have now turned into a huge procrastinator. something i never used to be. and the other bad thing about this is that i don't even need to necessarily be doing school work, but i could be doing other things like looking for a job or getting involved in workshops or internship opportunities or something. it's just bad 'cause i know i should be doing all this shit yet i don't WANT to. they're things you just gotta do when you're on your own, and no one should even be pushing you to get your shit straight anymore at this time, but i just don't have the motivation anymore.
weeks go by fast though, and weekends are always something to look forward to. i mostly stay here but there's always something to do, people to invite over, parties to attend. and i get to see bryan, for the entire duration of the weekend. i need to start going to my sister's in allston more often, or downtown or something...too bad boston is too expensive for me right now.
i've been thinking though, and maybe it's time i reward myself with a little something, nothing too big. it's been a while and i want to experience something wonderful, just for a short period.
i want to go out somewhere. i want to go out to dinner in boston, go to a show, walk around before it gets too cold to breathe. i haven't actually just sat outside and watched the sun set in a while, and i used to do that quite a lot, especially towards the end of summer. i would like to even just watch the sun rise every once in a while, but that's definitely out of the question for my lazy ass.
i need to go do research.
my roommate makes me feel really stupid and inadequate as a human being.