uhghg
everytime i write in here im always sad.
oh well its ok, its a journal.
i have had happy times this week.
like when i slept over michaels after jannas =) then watching " alot like love " which was the nicest love story and since we were sad we ate chocolate and sang out loud in his living room.
im going the yellowcard concert tonight with megan dawn. i dont really know where erin is =/.
i feel upset. i want to go home, but every time i talk to my mom its the same and i CANNOT go back there. but im not happy here living with my grandparents, they are insane and anal and drive me up the fucking wall. and last night i saw click with adam sandler and it got me sad, it was good. and everytime i see sad/tragic family movies they make me inspired to love my family and then i come home and i just end up shutting myself up and treating them like shit. i dont know why, but one of these days karma is gunna come looking for me and im gunna have it bad. i feel like there is never a break for me. i need a break. i need someone to love me.
uhh i miss him.
i miss my grandparents in buffalo. the ONLY family members i TRULY TRULY love and who make me laugh ( and i cant even see them this summer ) my luck ...
im gunna miss school with all my seniors being in it
* graduation was killer for my heart i was so sad. i cried in mike's arms. and i cried not only cause he is graduating but for everyone else i know and love. * im so happy for them though.
friendships are falling through, and i try
and they just keep slipping farther down.
ive been here before.
i cant stop listening to wild horses by natasha bedingfield.
i just wanna live my dream.
im ready to get out of here
and leave all the bad.
oh well its ok, its a journal.
i have had happy times this week.
like when i slept over michaels after jannas =) then watching " alot like love " which was the nicest love story and since we were sad we ate chocolate and sang out loud in his living room.
im going the yellowcard concert tonight with megan dawn. i dont really know where erin is =/.
i feel upset. i want to go home, but every time i talk to my mom its the same and i CANNOT go back there. but im not happy here living with my grandparents, they are insane and anal and drive me up the fucking wall. and last night i saw click with adam sandler and it got me sad, it was good. and everytime i see sad/tragic family movies they make me inspired to love my family and then i come home and i just end up shutting myself up and treating them like shit. i dont know why, but one of these days karma is gunna come looking for me and im gunna have it bad. i feel like there is never a break for me. i need a break. i need someone to love me.
uhh i miss him.
i miss my grandparents in buffalo. the ONLY family members i TRULY TRULY love and who make me laugh ( and i cant even see them this summer ) my luck ...
im gunna miss school with all my seniors being in it
* graduation was killer for my heart i was so sad. i cried in mike's arms. and i cried not only cause he is graduating but for everyone else i know and love. * im so happy for them though.
friendships are falling through, and i try
and they just keep slipping farther down.
ive been here before.
i cant stop listening to wild horses by natasha bedingfield.
i just wanna live my dream.
im ready to get out of here
and leave all the bad.