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god, i hate it how i know when im going to have a bad day.
the fun in my life doesn't shine through the bad..
My head hangs low..
I start to doubt everything..
and the one person i need is not there...
he never is...
I can't go on like this.
knowing that if he could be with someone rather than me he would be..
i guess im second best...
I guess im not even worth it...
i'm not the movie star in his little life..
Im the extra..
The one who stands there and is there when they need them..
and im there everytime...
when will i stop allowing myself to get hurt.
let the pain get in so deep that thers no way to get it out
god fuck this pain..fuck this heartache..
i don't know how much longer i can handle it..
You know i tell myself im not going to get hurt..
but every day is the same.....
I hate my heart.
the fun in my life doesn't shine through the bad..
My head hangs low..
I start to doubt everything..
and the one person i need is not there...
he never is...
I can't go on like this.
knowing that if he could be with someone rather than me he would be..
i guess im second best...
I guess im not even worth it...
i'm not the movie star in his little life..
Im the extra..
The one who stands there and is there when they need them..
and im there everytime...
when will i stop allowing myself to get hurt.
let the pain get in so deep that thers no way to get it out
god fuck this pain..fuck this heartache..
i don't know how much longer i can handle it..
You know i tell myself im not going to get hurt..
but every day is the same.....
I hate my heart.