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Christmas time is nice. Every year its good and every year i forget how good it is until it gets here. No christmas lights outside and no max and no playing in the back yard are the only downfalls thus far. so thats good, right?
So mom and dad and shauna were all in tampa for thanksgiving right. and i was here. so about that...Thursday, thanksgiving day Steeve and I went to dinner together at Fridays and his frat buddy was working so we had fun there. and then i decided to use my better judgment and go home. so im home and the guys call and decide they want to come over. and my better judgment went on vacation for a few days...a couple of the guys came over and they played poker and ryan got yelled at b/c of anna (lord thats a whole other story) and so they left before too long. I was only cleaning up for about an hour the next morning. But Friday night i had to work. So im in the lounge and the guys walk in and go gimme your keys. so i, being the incredibly intelligent individual i am, gave them my house keys, thinking i would get off work and be home within an hour or two. Oh no...i didnt get home til about 2am. I pull up and theres cars from Sadie lane. and im just like oh wonderful. I get to my house and man. By 2 most of the people had left already. but there were still a few people. Oh my gosh. I still cant believe that. Im kinda sad that i had a kick ass party and i wasnt even there for it. But i definitely cleaned for 4 hours the next morning.
um and mom and dad found out. of course. they wont tell me how and mom thinks shes being cute for not telling me what gave me away. I was just like hmm the neighbors? the stains on the carpet, the sheets reeking of alcohol? gee mom what could it be? guess ill never know. But dad pretty much just said i better not do it again or else (to which i replied or else what, you'll throw me out and he said no) and mom said she wasnt gonna punish me b/c im not 8 anymore. So it kinda really sucks that i disappointed them and lost some trust b/c lord knows for the past 3 years ive been working to build it up again.
So back to Xmas (oh hey i actually learned something at church sunday. the x in xmas is actually the greek letter for christ. so all you people who say hey putting an x is taking christ out of christmas...well ha, you're wrong) i got all my christmas shopping done. i think i spent round a bout 500 bucks. which is a crap load of money. i got 200 in one sunday so thats how i justify it. but still. i apparently am a very generous person. i wish i had known...
I got my cartilage pierced. first 18ish thing ive done. man im so hard.
So what would an extremely long journal entry be without boy talk? um i guess im done with ryan. which is weird b/c i was never really with him? the whole situation was what ive spent 4 years avoiding. but i made another enemy through all that so hey, at least i have some evil glances to show for it. the only thing that bothers me is that i let myself be lead on for 3 months. and he still hasnt been honest with me. but im not dumb and im tired of waiting around for excuses so ive pretty much said im done. i figure things will be easier on both of us that way...
life has a funny way of kinda kicking you in the butt. and has, recently, been very ironic. Ryan called me last night all drunken up and pretty much made an ass of himself. and then today i got an unexpected phone call and an unexpected apology (or something of that nature?). After dealing with ryan last night im feeling pretty stupid. So all things said, I'm sorry for my phone call. i know i dont have to say it and whats in the past is in the past but i feel like i should at least acknowledge how stupid that was. and you know i never meant to say anything hurtful. you can totally call me up one night and bitch me out. you should be drunk too or at least pretend to be. that might make me feel better. so yup. im livin and learnin.
Oh hey and one last thing. Once again I'm the only one without a man. theres jess and randy, chris and josh, cp and david, shannon and whatshisface, melissa and tj, leah and adam and their baby, stephanie and the other tj, ashley and matt, anna and mark, mckinley and sloan, michelle and michael, mandy and chris, ashley and phillip wow seriously i didnt realize how i really am the only person out of like 98% of the people i know who doesnt have a boyfriend. I think im ok with that. My past few experiences havent been so wonderful so im down with being single. Plus i work with way to many hott guys to be tied down (haha right jess)
im gonna go be productive now.
So mom and dad and shauna were all in tampa for thanksgiving right. and i was here. so about that...Thursday, thanksgiving day Steeve and I went to dinner together at Fridays and his frat buddy was working so we had fun there. and then i decided to use my better judgment and go home. so im home and the guys call and decide they want to come over. and my better judgment went on vacation for a few days...a couple of the guys came over and they played poker and ryan got yelled at b/c of anna (lord thats a whole other story) and so they left before too long. I was only cleaning up for about an hour the next morning. But Friday night i had to work. So im in the lounge and the guys walk in and go gimme your keys. so i, being the incredibly intelligent individual i am, gave them my house keys, thinking i would get off work and be home within an hour or two. Oh no...i didnt get home til about 2am. I pull up and theres cars from Sadie lane. and im just like oh wonderful. I get to my house and man. By 2 most of the people had left already. but there were still a few people. Oh my gosh. I still cant believe that. Im kinda sad that i had a kick ass party and i wasnt even there for it. But i definitely cleaned for 4 hours the next morning.
um and mom and dad found out. of course. they wont tell me how and mom thinks shes being cute for not telling me what gave me away. I was just like hmm the neighbors? the stains on the carpet, the sheets reeking of alcohol? gee mom what could it be? guess ill never know. But dad pretty much just said i better not do it again or else (to which i replied or else what, you'll throw me out and he said no) and mom said she wasnt gonna punish me b/c im not 8 anymore. So it kinda really sucks that i disappointed them and lost some trust b/c lord knows for the past 3 years ive been working to build it up again.
So back to Xmas (oh hey i actually learned something at church sunday. the x in xmas is actually the greek letter for christ. so all you people who say hey putting an x is taking christ out of christmas...well ha, you're wrong) i got all my christmas shopping done. i think i spent round a bout 500 bucks. which is a crap load of money. i got 200 in one sunday so thats how i justify it. but still. i apparently am a very generous person. i wish i had known...
I got my cartilage pierced. first 18ish thing ive done. man im so hard.
So what would an extremely long journal entry be without boy talk? um i guess im done with ryan. which is weird b/c i was never really with him? the whole situation was what ive spent 4 years avoiding. but i made another enemy through all that so hey, at least i have some evil glances to show for it. the only thing that bothers me is that i let myself be lead on for 3 months. and he still hasnt been honest with me. but im not dumb and im tired of waiting around for excuses so ive pretty much said im done. i figure things will be easier on both of us that way...
life has a funny way of kinda kicking you in the butt. and has, recently, been very ironic. Ryan called me last night all drunken up and pretty much made an ass of himself. and then today i got an unexpected phone call and an unexpected apology (or something of that nature?). After dealing with ryan last night im feeling pretty stupid. So all things said, I'm sorry for my phone call. i know i dont have to say it and whats in the past is in the past but i feel like i should at least acknowledge how stupid that was. and you know i never meant to say anything hurtful. you can totally call me up one night and bitch me out. you should be drunk too or at least pretend to be. that might make me feel better. so yup. im livin and learnin.
Oh hey and one last thing. Once again I'm the only one without a man. theres jess and randy, chris and josh, cp and david, shannon and whatshisface, melissa and tj, leah and adam and their baby, stephanie and the other tj, ashley and matt, anna and mark, mckinley and sloan, michelle and michael, mandy and chris, ashley and phillip wow seriously i didnt realize how i really am the only person out of like 98% of the people i know who doesnt have a boyfriend. I think im ok with that. My past few experiences havent been so wonderful so im down with being single. Plus i work with way to many hott guys to be tied down (haha right jess)
im gonna go be productive now.