yuck and double yuck
so now what that is all i can think about and it's really cuting into my life. I am so worried about what i am doing when i get done with school that i can't even focus on it and i am going to get my ass in trouble if i don't start paying attention to what i am doing. I am at work i come to work because here i can do what i am supposed to and sure i think but not all the time about what the freak is going to happen in my life. Besides that i think i am just moving home if i move where in the hell am i going ot find someone. don't really feel like being alone for the rest of my life. so i started to think about guys and home yeah none of them would date me. I said something to my mom about finding so more and new friends when i get home cause the only two there will be married and it isn't cool to hang out with me if you're married. She was like you can hang out with me yeah that's a sure way to stay single. you know i really thought that shane was the guy for me but it just so happens i am not the girl for him so i guess i'll have to deal. I am so over all the games i can't do it anymore it's almost better to be alone than play his stupid games anymore and maybe it isn't his fault he acts like this but everytime he does he damages part of me make me think noone else would want to be with me if he can't even stand me. so anyway yeah i am at work so i guess i should be done complaining i just wish i could find some motivation i am sure it's down there somewhere.