it's another day...it's just another day...
So basically I decided long before today had even come into full swing that I hated today. Now, this may sound very childish and immature, even adolescent perhaps, but I don't really give a flying fuck. I really can't be happy cheery nannified Janine all of the time. Rainbows and sunshine is not really working for me today. I haven't even had coffee yet and it's 9:30. I should be doing my radio performance homework right now, but basically I decided to just do it over the weekend because I don't feel like doing it now, however it is due today. Oh well. I guess I'm good at being irresponsible today too. I think it all began this morning when my sister was being wicked ridiculous. I love her, but honestly sometimes that girl just freakin' pushes me over the edge. I also have a song workshop today for a song that STILL has no words, and I don't know what to do about that, because unless magic words float into my brain before 2 or so I'm going to just be like yeah... this song has no words yet...deal. The weather sucks. I really need a cold brisk sunny day. Someone work on that for me please. God, now I'm just pissing myself off at how much this makes me think of the old angst ridden Janine. I suppose that's not so bad for one day. I'm also quite certain that by the end of today something will have happened that will do one of about 3 things a.) be the straw that breaks the camels back and lead me to telling someone off b.) get me really upset and frusterated and make me cry or c.) make me realize that everything isn't so shitty and make me happy again. Remember on the SATs or any multiple choice test they always say when in doubt choose c. But who are "they" anyways?
Fuck.
Fuck.