why the joy
I just finished reading a lot of people’s lj posts about the New Year beginning, and the excitement of the past year to be over. I would like to say that my feelings towards all of that are completely different.
On New Year’s eve, I am always in great sprits, until I realize that there is only 30 minutes, 20 minutes, 10 minutes left until the year is over. I find it so depressing. In 10 minutes I will never get to write 2004 on my school assignments anymore, I will never ever in my whole entire life be able to live in 2004 again, all you can do is say “back in 2004” not “right now, 2004”. 2004 is over. The year is about to be over for good. I find it so sad, never being able to go back to the year, it is impossible, unless time travel existed, but it doesn’t.
I look back on my year right now, and so much has happened in one year. I never really thought about what all happens and happened in one year. I was in another play, I went to Disciple Now which even though I didn’t get much spiritually out of the retreat I did make a lot of friends, two of which I became good friends with and one of which I will always love to . I was asked to sing a solo in a wedding ceremony, I did SERVE, I entered in Middletown Idol, I went to Costa Rica which was my first real mission trip {excluding the SERVE one, which was here in Muncie}, I was named Aunt because of my brother’s daughter, my other sibling is now pregnant also, I became much closer with some friends, I went through heartache because of people’s moves with no thought behind them, I prayed without cease for about a week for one of my siblings who was going through a very hard time. I realized that I need to pay more attention to my family. And the list goes on and on. I am so thankful for the year of 2004, and I wish it could just go on and on. I don’t want it to stop. But then it excites me to think that I have a whole another year, a whole another 365 days of surprises, of things and events, not knowing what is going to come up. I think my new years resolution is to become closer to God, JESUS CHRIST. I can never get to close to Him, and I need to find Him and put Him in the center of everything I do. But how hard it is to do that. Hopefully with his strength and encouragement from others I can attempt to do it. If only I had a lot of friends who wanted me to be close to Him, it would make things easier. But prosecution comes with being a Christian.
On New Year’s eve, I am always in great sprits, until I realize that there is only 30 minutes, 20 minutes, 10 minutes left until the year is over. I find it so depressing. In 10 minutes I will never get to write 2004 on my school assignments anymore, I will never ever in my whole entire life be able to live in 2004 again, all you can do is say “back in 2004” not “right now, 2004”. 2004 is over. The year is about to be over for good. I find it so sad, never being able to go back to the year, it is impossible, unless time travel existed, but it doesn’t.
I look back on my year right now, and so much has happened in one year. I never really thought about what all happens and happened in one year. I was in another play, I went to Disciple Now which even though I didn’t get much spiritually out of the retreat I did make a lot of friends, two of which I became good friends with and one of which I will always love to . I was asked to sing a solo in a wedding ceremony, I did SERVE, I entered in Middletown Idol, I went to Costa Rica which was my first real mission trip {excluding the SERVE one, which was here in Muncie}, I was named Aunt because of my brother’s daughter, my other sibling is now pregnant also, I became much closer with some friends, I went through heartache because of people’s moves with no thought behind them, I prayed without cease for about a week for one of my siblings who was going through a very hard time. I realized that I need to pay more attention to my family. And the list goes on and on. I am so thankful for the year of 2004, and I wish it could just go on and on. I don’t want it to stop. But then it excites me to think that I have a whole another year, a whole another 365 days of surprises, of things and events, not knowing what is going to come up. I think my new years resolution is to become closer to God, JESUS CHRIST. I can never get to close to Him, and I need to find Him and put Him in the center of everything I do. But how hard it is to do that. Hopefully with his strength and encouragement from others I can attempt to do it. If only I had a lot of friends who wanted me to be close to Him, it would make things easier. But prosecution comes with being a Christian.