*deep breath*
Long week... very long...
It is nice to have Bryan in town, even though I have only seen him once for a very little time. I have been feeling lonely as of late, and I am now at the end of a very long week and I have been up and down in the middle of it all. It is good to have the friends in town that are here, but there are still the exceptional couple that understand me in some different way that I like to have around when I am feeling like shite. I had a quick conversation, which was quite unexpected, with Lacey today and laid a few things out since she asked. Things are still hard for me, and some days a lot harder than others, and I know that I need to be a lot more honest to others about that. I have already promised myself to be honest with myself, and that has trickled down into other parts of my life. There are a lot of things I have had to deal with, and probably one of the hardest parts is that I have not had a choice but to deal with them.
I have a lot to deal with, a lot to get done, and all on top of my regularly scheduled routine. I am stressed usually, and I can look forward to a lot more of it. I have a few things I can do here and there that help bring me back into a sane state, help me pass through days where I am quite depressed, but all in all it is nothing permanent. I can only hope that I can continue to understand it all, and work out some answers while I have an endless stream of questions. A day where I can find some hint at any one of them is usually a better day than the rest. So, I basically have my head full, and I see no hope of any long lasting relief for another while.
Unfortunately for me, Nintendo thought it a good idea to release Smash Brothers Brawl in the middle of my semester... god damn them. I just want to say, that this game in it's entirety is looking to be one hell of an amazing game. Seriously... amazing.
It is nice to have Bryan in town, even though I have only seen him once for a very little time. I have been feeling lonely as of late, and I am now at the end of a very long week and I have been up and down in the middle of it all. It is good to have the friends in town that are here, but there are still the exceptional couple that understand me in some different way that I like to have around when I am feeling like shite. I had a quick conversation, which was quite unexpected, with Lacey today and laid a few things out since she asked. Things are still hard for me, and some days a lot harder than others, and I know that I need to be a lot more honest to others about that. I have already promised myself to be honest with myself, and that has trickled down into other parts of my life. There are a lot of things I have had to deal with, and probably one of the hardest parts is that I have not had a choice but to deal with them.
I have a lot to deal with, a lot to get done, and all on top of my regularly scheduled routine. I am stressed usually, and I can look forward to a lot more of it. I have a few things I can do here and there that help bring me back into a sane state, help me pass through days where I am quite depressed, but all in all it is nothing permanent. I can only hope that I can continue to understand it all, and work out some answers while I have an endless stream of questions. A day where I can find some hint at any one of them is usually a better day than the rest. So, I basically have my head full, and I see no hope of any long lasting relief for another while.
Unfortunately for me, Nintendo thought it a good idea to release Smash Brothers Brawl in the middle of my semester... god damn them. I just want to say, that this game in it's entirety is looking to be one hell of an amazing game. Seriously... amazing.