best intentions/worst impulses
There is nothing worse then reading over your livejournal entries and realising you’ve gone in complete circles for months, even years. Hah.
Lets see, tomorrow will mark exactly a month since ive seen/spoken to/heard from PJ. Good? Bad? I don’t know, but necessary. I miss him a lot but fuck it. Having mutual friends/being in contact with his brother is hard. Constantly fighting the urge to ask about him.
Nick has changed so much. I used to think he was such a catch but i no longer do. He doesn’t seem to realise theres a line, he gets all touchy feely and while the other girls and i are up for a dance or a cuddle he still manages to get inappropriate a lot of the time. I cracked the shits and him the other night and got an apology message from him yesterday promising to tone it down. Thank fuck, it was getting to the point that sometimes it was unpleasant to be around him.
Lastly, theres Matt. My fuck buddy to put it crudely. He could be PJ’s body double just a few years older. He’s lovely, on the same wave length. I like that we hang out when we want, it doesn’t matter when we don’t, no need for messages or calls or getting to involved. Just old fashion fucking, wine, conversation and the occasional gig. I like the fact that if i choose to walk away im not losing anything and we have no connections.
Too bad he looks like PJ.
Lets see, tomorrow will mark exactly a month since ive seen/spoken to/heard from PJ. Good? Bad? I don’t know, but necessary. I miss him a lot but fuck it. Having mutual friends/being in contact with his brother is hard. Constantly fighting the urge to ask about him.
Nick has changed so much. I used to think he was such a catch but i no longer do. He doesn’t seem to realise theres a line, he gets all touchy feely and while the other girls and i are up for a dance or a cuddle he still manages to get inappropriate a lot of the time. I cracked the shits and him the other night and got an apology message from him yesterday promising to tone it down. Thank fuck, it was getting to the point that sometimes it was unpleasant to be around him.
Lastly, theres Matt. My fuck buddy to put it crudely. He could be PJ’s body double just a few years older. He’s lovely, on the same wave length. I like that we hang out when we want, it doesn’t matter when we don’t, no need for messages or calls or getting to involved. Just old fashion fucking, wine, conversation and the occasional gig. I like the fact that if i choose to walk away im not losing anything and we have no connections.
Too bad he looks like PJ.