Tired
i really don't know what to do. period. im 17 yrs old. my entire life has been in shambles. junior year things started looking up. i was positive senior year was gunna be the breaking point. it had more ups than other years, but all in all its still the same shit. yes im young in age, but in mind, im not. and thats just a fact. its not something i can control, it just kinda happened like that. all mylife ive been a scatted brain. never knew right from wrong, up from down. i just kinda let things go. i never got mad at anything. ive held everything in for as long as i can remember. i really dont think i can do it anymore. i always put up with peoples shit, and even tho i say i wont do it anymore, i kno i will cuz thats just the way i am. i really wish i wasnt. i try to be a hard ass but thats just not me. being cold doesnt even suit me. i can say this year u went thru alot of transformations. puled people in and out of my life and really did wat was best for me and my self esteem. one particular person helped me alot.
so im gunna stop beating around the bush and leading to something. she really doesnt want me anymore... i think she found someone new. shes forcing herself to stay away from me. we dont talk anymore. i call and i get an answering machine. theres only been a few times shes actually answered wheni called in the past 2 weeks. usually when im with her, when ppl cal i wont answer. if there even is someone else, she must be really special. shes pullin the move we used to wen we were together. just wen u think things might be lookin up.
never assume. if thats one thing u taught me that was right.