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I'm not the same person I used to be. I am slowly changing into the REAL me. I used to feel I had to pretend to be someone I wasn't, but now I don't care.
I have come to realize I don't know much about my friends lives. I'm not that close to anyone, and in a way, I'm afraid to. Ever since I was little bad things happen when I get close. When I was in Kindergarten, my best friend deserted me for more "popular" people. In fifth grade my best friend moved to Visalia. In eighth grade my best friend moved to San Jose. And since eighth grade, I've been afraid. I have been afraid I will get close and I will get hurt. It is a horrible thing to be afraid of.
I also realized I only update this thing when I am really hyper, really bored, really angry, really sad, really sleepy or really insightful. I rarely just post my day. It's not my style I guess.
I have come to realize I don't know much about my friends lives. I'm not that close to anyone, and in a way, I'm afraid to. Ever since I was little bad things happen when I get close. When I was in Kindergarten, my best friend deserted me for more "popular" people. In fifth grade my best friend moved to Visalia. In eighth grade my best friend moved to San Jose. And since eighth grade, I've been afraid. I have been afraid I will get close and I will get hurt. It is a horrible thing to be afraid of.
I also realized I only update this thing when I am really hyper, really bored, really angry, really sad, really sleepy or really insightful. I rarely just post my day. It's not my style I guess.