lonely
damn...sometimes there are some things that you just can't change. for instance...the way people feel and the way others make them feel. I wish I could change so many things but I can't. I'm here, so far away from home, with nobody ever here to hold me at night or kiss me beneath the stars. I wish I had that luxury like so many others in the world. One day I'm sure will come where that will happen and I'll be happy for the first time in a long time. I can see it, I can feel it. Why can't I grasp it? My grandparents are going on vacation sometime within the next two months. This means, I will be here, alone, with my friend BJ who they think is an angel and is for the most part. Dammit! all day today I thought of the perfect scene, for me anyways. My car, 1967 fastback mustang parked in a parking lot next to the beach, seagulls crying everytime the waves crashed on the beach, holding her, being held, sounds familiar I know but it's exactly what I was thinking before anything was said. Funny how some things work out that way, and in my case, they almost always work out that way, and I wouldn't have it any other way. There's no way I could ever see myself living as happy as I am now. Honestly. Well yeah it's getting kind of late and so I think I will go to bed. I shall talk to you journal snoopers later...oh and by the way, Scars' forecast for tonight is...millions and millions of stars to pick from and a free ride to whichever one, no matter how far away.